::BLIND WONDERS::

  

I’m the sensational underachiever 

The ultimate nonbelievers dreamer

The quiet one till screams are heard

Silence breeds death I’m cured with words

The ignorant only want the best product 

Survival guide for life and love uncovered

Eyes reveal truth in a world of blind wonders. 

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::EYES ON THE PRIZE::

They tried to defeat me and write me off/

But learning lessons aren’t like a loss/

For every reaction there’s a cause/

For every action no doubt there’s a cost…

I survived through the dark and the noise/

My heart even when broken kept me poised/

Taking chances… 

Falling down and getting up only takes advances/

Me and the hard times are like those hate&love romances/

I don’t live for the questions… 

I only find the answers/

Knowing difficulties are around the corner and won’t vanish/

I’ve done taken damage/

Been taken advantage/

But my roar is savage/

My will is isn’t average/

Still some wonder how I manage/

My character describes what this man is/

Those open hands is… Bad biz/

I can’t part for those not in my faction/

Not even a fraction/

Steady eyes on the prize with no distractions/

Can’t give up till I make it happen/

Haters laughing and doubt with an evil passion/

Reason I keep a smile on my face and keep passing/

On my way to the top of that mountain of my revival/

It’s been a key to my survival/

To push through and fight their denial. 

::CONQUER::

Can’t ever feel defeated/ 

This light shines on the depleted/

We take it or we leave it/

It’s with outstanding meaning/

This is my perseverance/

The strength engulfed in my spirit/

Some hear it… And some fear it/

This energy I find myself filled with/

Gives life and breaths fire into my soul/

Resurrects the structure of my bones/

Till I’m like a hard to move object of stone/

Holding my own wherever I tend to roam/

They expect me to fall and crawl on my own/

Cave under the pressure and stay out of the zone/

But I’m ready for the unknown it’s what I prepared for/

Therefore/

It’s like I’ve been here before/

It’s nothing but the more or less/

It’s all I have been built for in the flesh/

Conquer it and move on to the next. 

::HISTORY::

Concrete jungle/

Filled with sirens and hustle/

Where they either hate or love you/

And this illusion is a reality for a few/

So I rise and shine for the ultimate grind/

My mind shines, I’m a one of a kind/

Can’t find a crack or a weakness/

Your enemies talk down when they speak this/

Your rivals walk around unsteady when they see this/

They can’t believe this…./

After barrages and sabotages keeping you from complicated accomplishments/

Your will defeated the odds and didn’t comply with their vileness/

Watch them view you with unwanted astonishment/

As you break past their broken promises/

Because nobody can promise this/

Standing tall like a champ on your Mount Olympus for all to witness/

No give up or give in for this victory/

You are now a part of their history. 

::HURT ME::

Persecuted

From words diluted

Mind clouded 

Guess I’m just better suited

In a world far away from here

Where nobody is near

And nobody is near

And nobody can hear

The difference between 

You, my reality and our fears
I am no regrets I am no worries

Just give me a sec I’m in no hurry

And I didn’t ask if I was worthy 

All I asked was that you wouldn’t hurt me

But you hurt me… you hurt me 

Yea you hurt me… Oh you hurt me
Relegated 

Pushed aside and hesitated

Always debated and lied to 

You were so unmindful 

And you had my mind fooled

And now I wanna hide from you

Tears fall when I’m reminded of you

But I’ll be fine I’m cool 

I’m glad I won’t waste anymore time on you
I am no regrets I am no worries

Just give me a sec I’m in no hurry

And I didn’t ask if I was worthy 

All I asked was that you wouldn’t hurt me

But you hurt me… you hurt me 

Yea you hurt me… Oh you hurt me
Addicted

Tears and pain conflicted

No pity drawn in my image

Walking away a casualty of your sickness

Love torn battled this only witness

Blood scars and memories in vision

Barely alive… But I’m alive and kicking

Knowing there is nothing worth missing

For those pleas are no longer worth listening

::GIVE ME::

When the body it yearns

And the mind doesn’t learn

And were all just taking turns

What is it that you actually earned


So do you miss me 

When it’s all too risky

What do you wish me

More of the pain that you give me

Give me give me give me 


Painfully looking at our pictures

Were either victims or victors

They asked if I missed her

They ask if my hearts been injured


So do you miss me 

When it’s all too risky

What do you wish me

More of the pain that you give me

Give me give me give me


When sunshines don’t reach 

Blowing winds on an empty beach

What do broken hearts teach

More than the words of love can speak 


So do you miss me 

When it’s all too risky

What do you wish me

More of the pain that you give me

Give me give me give me


How could it all end shattered

Betrayed and souls battered 

I wish I could just ask her 

Was it us or did you only matter 


So do you miss me 

When it’s all too risky

What do you wish me

More of the pain that you give me

Give me give me give me

::DEEPER::

Where do we take

Love after it breaks

Trust and we’ve been lost

In the cusp of thinking of us 

The rush slows down

The heart beats were so loud 

As drums could beat 

Lost awake in a sleep 

And reality did seem 

As if you could rewrite a dream

Unraveled at the seams 

Redeemed a coupon for a new

Life in seek of the truth 

Beneath the lies assumed 

Consumed by the universe

Maybe it could be us

in another world

Where I saw diamonds and pearls

Designed on the perfect girl 

Whirlwinds and I take off 

No direction and I stay lost 

Finding my way when fate calls

No days off I took years already

Heart heavy and…

You’re..

All..

Hiding.. 

Never.. 

Zealously.. 

Yielding anything of a deeper meaning. 

::MY LIFE::

When people assume it’s only because they fear the truth/
I guess my words are my actions…
See all that it’s lead me to/
Clawing tooth and nail in a world where I’m destined to fail/
Dreaming every night on when these dreams a set sail/
We all have our tales I’m just best to describe mine/
I’m sure we all have pain in our lives… Just look at my lines/
Tough times in rough rhymes patterned behind emotional crimes/
I was designed a little different/
I’ve come a long way from being a misfit/
But it’s that childhood I think back to and I miss it/
The innocence is long place away and too far to visit/
Listen… My imperfections make me perfect for me/
But again nothing is perfect no matter how hard you believe/
We… Can be betrayed and deceived by the ones we need/
Truth indeed… Life longs can become for life gone/
I guess we can let bygones be bygones/
But really who is the judge of our right and wrongs/
I’m not trying to write a song but a symphony of life/
And I’m not looking for pity or validation in anyone’s eyes/
Because they wish for your pain through their sympathy of lies/
And I’ve cried a million rain storms sitting alone/
And I’ve been a shoulder for tears to rain on/
I’ve been the consoled and consoler/
I guess if you understand their pain it makes you tougher/
More so to a stranger than a sister or brother/
I take cover in solitude at times to hide from reality/
Because I could never imagine all this sadness and tragedy/
But I learned in hugs they were backstabbing me/
And I held on tighter to them…Don’t be mad at me/
Don’t be sad for me… Be happy for me actually/
Because nobody fake could ever pass for me/
And my past is my past so don’t ask if this love will last in me/
Cause I’m standing tall in the face of blasphemy/
With no hate in my heart so I know I’m living passionately.

::HERE::

35 years and I’m right here
Through the wrongs and the rights here
Through every single word that I write here
Through the darkness and what I might fear
Through the shine of my soul and the light here
Feelings expressed and though they might hear
Had a few backs turned thought they might care
Still believing in my dreams after a few nightmares
So I still put all my hope in my days and my nights there
Still talking to The Lord and I know that Christ’s here
Keeping me strong through the cries here
Keeping me where I belong away from the lies here
Circle getting smaller with people falling out of my sphere
But it’s 35 years and I’m right here and I’ll make it quite clear
No matter what happens good or bad I’m truly alive here.