::ASK FOR LOVE::

Say your prayers/

For the naysayers/

And the haters/

Don’t forget your neighbors/

Who wish for your failures/

Oh you should get your mind off/

Now they say your minds lost/

Watching till your time exhausts/

So tell me how much a rewind costs/

So I can go back and tell y’all to get lost/

Oh you’re such a jerk now, such an asshole/

I’m deep into my work now, cash roll/

You used to be important in a past role/

Now you’re exhausted news, way past old/

You’ll always have a good hand and fold/

Me I’ll play the cards dealt and never hold/

Your Groundhog Day will ruin your soul/

Round and round till you waste your life away/

Guess we can’t all make these changes/

But don’t include me, I make statements/

I won’t include you, I made arrangements/

New world, New life, and I had to rearrange shit/

Just think of me as special operative or secret agent/

But it’s not a secret that these feelings are aging/

I got tired of being pushed around taken advantage of/

While everyone came up empty when I asked for love. 

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::EMPTY SOUL::

You wanted my everything/

I don’t want anything/

You pulled my every string…

Pushed my every button/

Thought we had something/

It quickly became nothing…

From having it all to no/

From laughing with someone I don’t know/

I won’t ask from here where do we go/

It’s dying slow the character you were/

Nothing real only illusions that occurred/

Professional happiness saboteur/

No self love having miserable amateur/

Pasture filled with nothing but lonely roads/

Wandering disasters of an empty soul. 

Crash crash burn

You ask but don’t learn

Crash crash till you collapse

I guess it’s only right…

That I write about that last laugh. 

Empty eyes with nothing to hold
Words empty with nothing told
Actions paid for by actors sold 
Hooray you made fake last till it’s known 
Empty soul.. empty soul.. empty soul. 

::HEARTS POUNDING::

So everybody’s perfect/

I guess now it’s all worth it/

Tell me how’s it working/

Oh child you’re still searching/

Heard you were asking/

Heard you were lacking/

Self love and emotional passion/

I’m aggressive yet passive/

Still stuck yet past this/

Absolutely changed…

Yea I bet you can’t imagine/

Turned so cold and savage/

I’m so cold, lost with no salvage/

Now all I care about is my outfits/

Only stick to what now fits/

And I change often get put out quick/

Yea, It’s quiet now, no more loudness/

Excluded you and all who doubt this/

No more keeping me down bitch/

I guess I might see you around bitch/

I don’t talk like this but my mouth switched/

Is it the pain that makes you sound selfish/

Or the experience of what your hell now is/

Maybe you’re confusing all this foulness/

Surrounded by adults acting so childish/

So far, it’s so hard, to walk away, these miles is/

Milestones as high as some mountains/

Turn back to my youth without fountains/

Put me in deep water and told me to now swim/

Gave me heartbreaks and told me to now think/

Gave me heartbreaks but I’m still alive…

Hearts pounding. 

::WHERE THE LIGHT IS::

They tried to capitalize/

Wishing on my demise/

But I’ve seen the eyes/

Of those of have tried/

Pushing and pulling hate/

It’s how I made my great escape/

Some don’t understand my ways/

Reason why I keep to myself today/

Damaged souls trying to take a toll/

Trying to make me fold from my mold/

But I won’t be sold out I’m priceless/

Understand my love for the life I live/

How my days struggled to where my nights is/

How I corrected my wrongs with the righteous/

And gave me the courage to write this/

Staggering out of the dark to where the light is. 
 

::SOULMATE::

  
So you’re soulmates/

Yea….That’s so great/

So we’re we… That’s no fate/

No faith… No taste… Wait… No wait/

Speeding things up and showed faith/

Hold up…time out… this is no race/

Screw things up now you won’t show face/

Holed up and heart held captive for no place/

No responsibility, it’s show you have no grace/

I hope they know how to go from being great to being replaced/

Free ride for love but your a heartbreak cheapskate/

Bad memories are worse when their a keep sake/

Arguments and name calling, now we need space/

But what I wished for couldn’t be erased/

Lesson learnt… And your the teachers name/

What’s love… Really what’s your love… You should be ashamed/

Soulmate. Sold faith. Soulmate. So great. Soulmate. Takes no blame. Soulmate. No remains. Soulmate. Oh wait. Soulmate. Two faced. Soulmate…Not to one but so many who don’t know until it’s too late.  

 

::BITE ME::

I remember the way we…

You don’t remember maybe…

Hey see… 

Maybe you’ll remember me…

When I’m pushing up daisies…

Call me crazy…

But why haven’t you called me lately…

Heard you’re calling me crazy…

Protagonist or me just being lazy…

We can take it back to the 80’s…

Saw you across the street the other day but got lost in my A-D-D…

Nah just kidding oh do-re-mi…

Where do I stand with you, 

Oh please do rate me…

With or without you I’m doing great see…

No problems, no sour grapes see…

And yea I’m still waiting on Jay Z…

Still writing, you’re still lying, I see…

It’s cold in here, maybe you’re soul is icy…

Where we taking this, entice me…

Whether you like or don’t like me…

Doesn’t change a damn thing likely…

Bite me. 

::MEET YOU:: 

Truth is, I can see your evil

Didn’t think it existed in people

But your kiss was toxic 

And your supposed love was lethal

And each innocent passing person 

Is a victim in a line of your sequels

Your soul is see through

Your heart black with no equal 

Do wrong but expect one to need you

And the only regret I have…

Is the day I left my house to meet you.

::BELIEVED IN::

You were always trying to give me a hard time

Guess you’re just a product of a hard life

And all I wanted was truth and you gave me hard lies 

While digging through your soul and getting lost in your hard eyes

I can still see the looks you gave me

Drowning in them and they enslaved me

But your deepest pain isn’t why you hate me

Didn’t realize it then but I’m knowing lately

That…

I am not the reason… What’s the reason

I am not the reason… What’s the reason

Not everything you see should be believed in… Believed in… Believed in

I was trapped in trying to understand you

World turned upside down you’re a handful 

I saw the beauty in it all and you saw from a bad view

Maybe I didn’t take the time to sit there and ask you

I can still see the looks you gave me

Drowning in them and they enslaved me

But your deepest pain isn’t why you hate me

Didn’t realize it then but I’m knowing lately

That…

I am not the reason… What’s the reason

I am not the reason… What’s the reason 

Not everything you see should be believed in… Believed in… Believed in

::NEVER CLEAR:: (A Sad Love Song) 

Somehow I’ve been sitting over hereGoosebumps and fighting tears

Even though it’s been over for years

I feel what we had was never clear
And I’m not one to get sentimental 

But you and this have always been on my mental

I wonder how your doing with that 

I wonder who you’re with and where you’re at
Fighting off your demons I found my own 

And lost in your mess I found myself alone

Behind angry text messages and ring tones

Surrounded by four walls of silence in our empty home
And…
Somehow I’m sitting over here

Goosebumps and fighting tears

Even though it’s been over for years

I feel what we had was never clear

Thinking about all the patient I had 

And watching you walk away so mad

Why does the heart get so vindictive 

Misunderstandings we’re all innocent victims 
I heard somewhere through the grapevine

You been alone and trying to make up for lost time

Are you feeling like I have with all this

It’s never clear until all is gone and missed 
And…
Somehow I’m sitting over here

Goosebumps and fighting tears

Even though it’s been over for years

I feel what we had was never clear

::HARD TO ERASE::

There has to be a better way/Looking around corners for better days/

The stars don’t shine like they used to/

Constant thinking has my mind confused to/

Look… I’m just sitting here trying to put it all together/

Maybe my math is wrong when it comes to forever/

Infinity signs/

They live in my mind/

I see designs of hearts and world structures/

What’s love what’s life…

what the fuck bruh/

I can’t even take criticism well lately/

Wanna be alone even though these women wanna date me/

Soon they’ll hate me judging off my present/

But my past fucked up… It’s like a death sentence/

And if I keep writing then you might get mentioned/

I don’t need this tension and drinking ain’t the answer/

I use to be happy go lucky but this heartbreak is a cancer/

I’m a disaster and I can’t help it/

Trying to love myself again and I feel selfish/

And the world don’t help this/

And I ain’t trying to see no therapist/

I keep thinking there gotta be some better shit/

Got a gym membership and tried to work out my pain/

Running miles thinking about fame/

Since you said my name wasn’t worth shit/

Maybe I’ll get a gig and get my words spit/

My nerves get the best of me/

Fuck it… I gave you what was left in me/

Fuck it… I thought me and you was destiny… But we would never be/

I’m empty… I don’t trust like I use to/

My friends say she just used you/

Death around the corner… 

So where’s the news crew?/

It’s all about the who’s who/

I swore I knew but I was confused too/

This is that true blue under the weather poetry/

I’ll be better off tomorrow for you just knowing me/

And showing me/

There’s nothing wrong with being a lonely me/

And I know the sky will clear up/

And maybe I’ll cheer up/

Maybe I’ll forget all this nonsense/

In fact I’ve been really calm since/

And settled into my own place/

Found myself again got my own place/

But memories still live in my thoughts…

It’s a part of the heart that’s hard to erase.