::WORTH::

Perfection slighted
Indecision tonight is 
Highlighted 

Waiting out this sunrise

Is it us or is it just sometimes

I can feel out all of these lies 
The truth hurts 

It’s true if it works 

For what it’s worth

Is it worthless to us
Fact or fiction 

All of this friction 

Depictions

Lost in not truly living 

Is it us or is it just us not giving

I can feel all of this here sitting
The truth hurts 

It’s true if it works 

For what it’s worth

Is it worthless to us
All of these lies

All of these facts 

All of these lies 

All of these facts 

Is it too much to ask

Is it too much to ask

To whom must I give thanks 

When everyone is shooting blanks 

::EMPTY SOUL::

You wanted my everything/

I don’t want anything/

You pulled my every string…

Pushed my every button/

Thought we had something/

It quickly became nothing…

From having it all to no/

From laughing with someone I don’t know/

I won’t ask from here where do we go/

It’s dying slow the character you were/

Nothing real only illusions that occurred/

Professional happiness saboteur/

No self love having miserable amateur/

Pasture filled with nothing but lonely roads/

Wandering disasters of an empty soul. 

Crash crash burn

You ask but don’t learn

Crash crash till you collapse

I guess it’s only right…

That I write about that last laugh. 

Empty eyes with nothing to hold
Words empty with nothing told
Actions paid for by actors sold 
Hooray you made fake last till it’s known 
Empty soul.. empty soul.. empty soul. 

::HEARTS POUNDING::

So everybody’s perfect/

I guess now it’s all worth it/

Tell me how’s it working/

Oh child you’re still searching/

Heard you were asking/

Heard you were lacking/

Self love and emotional passion/

I’m aggressive yet passive/

Still stuck yet past this/

Absolutely changed…

Yea I bet you can’t imagine/

Turned so cold and savage/

I’m so cold, lost with no salvage/

Now all I care about is my outfits/

Only stick to what now fits/

And I change often get put out quick/

Yea, It’s quiet now, no more loudness/

Excluded you and all who doubt this/

No more keeping me down bitch/

I guess I might see you around bitch/

I don’t talk like this but my mouth switched/

Is it the pain that makes you sound selfish/

Or the experience of what your hell now is/

Maybe you’re confusing all this foulness/

Surrounded by adults acting so childish/

So far, it’s so hard, to walk away, these miles is/

Milestones as high as some mountains/

Turn back to my youth without fountains/

Put me in deep water and told me to now swim/

Gave me heartbreaks and told me to now think/

Gave me heartbreaks but I’m still alive…

Hearts pounding. 

::EYES ON THE PRIZE::

They tried to defeat me and write me off/

But learning lessons aren’t like a loss/

For every reaction there’s a cause/

For every action no doubt there’s a cost…

I survived through the dark and the noise/

My heart even when broken kept me poised/

Taking chances… 

Falling down and getting up only takes advances/

Me and the hard times are like those hate&love romances/

I don’t live for the questions… 

I only find the answers/

Knowing difficulties are around the corner and won’t vanish/

I’ve done taken damage/

Been taken advantage/

But my roar is savage/

My will is isn’t average/

Still some wonder how I manage/

My character describes what this man is/

Those open hands is… Bad biz/

I can’t part for those not in my faction/

Not even a fraction/

Steady eyes on the prize with no distractions/

Can’t give up till I make it happen/

Haters laughing and doubt with an evil passion/

Reason I keep a smile on my face and keep passing/

On my way to the top of that mountain of my revival/

It’s been a key to my survival/

To push through and fight their denial. 

::HARD TO ERASE::

There has to be a better way/Looking around corners for better days/

The stars don’t shine like they used to/

Constant thinking has my mind confused to/

Look… I’m just sitting here trying to put it all together/

Maybe my math is wrong when it comes to forever/

Infinity signs/

They live in my mind/

I see designs of hearts and world structures/

What’s love what’s life…

what the fuck bruh/

I can’t even take criticism well lately/

Wanna be alone even though these women wanna date me/

Soon they’ll hate me judging off my present/

But my past fucked up… It’s like a death sentence/

And if I keep writing then you might get mentioned/

I don’t need this tension and drinking ain’t the answer/

I use to be happy go lucky but this heartbreak is a cancer/

I’m a disaster and I can’t help it/

Trying to love myself again and I feel selfish/

And the world don’t help this/

And I ain’t trying to see no therapist/

I keep thinking there gotta be some better shit/

Got a gym membership and tried to work out my pain/

Running miles thinking about fame/

Since you said my name wasn’t worth shit/

Maybe I’ll get a gig and get my words spit/

My nerves get the best of me/

Fuck it… I gave you what was left in me/

Fuck it… I thought me and you was destiny… But we would never be/

I’m empty… I don’t trust like I use to/

My friends say she just used you/

Death around the corner… 

So where’s the news crew?/

It’s all about the who’s who/

I swore I knew but I was confused too/

This is that true blue under the weather poetry/

I’ll be better off tomorrow for you just knowing me/

And showing me/

There’s nothing wrong with being a lonely me/

And I know the sky will clear up/

And maybe I’ll cheer up/

Maybe I’ll forget all this nonsense/

In fact I’ve been really calm since/

And settled into my own place/

Found myself again got my own place/

But memories still live in my thoughts…

It’s a part of the heart that’s hard to erase. 

::OUR SONG::

I wanted to know you

Beyond reasons I could go

To understand the causes

Of time and these love loses

And so I came across us tonight

In a song that would last for life

We made memories in a melody

Memories that still tempt me

And I know you’ve been long gone

But you’ll always live in our song

Woke up and replayed it

A thousand times and I’ll fake it

Not having you to dance with

And it’s hard cause I know your past it

But I rewind it right to our part

It was so beautiful at our very start

We made memories in that melody

Memories that still tempt me

And I know you’ve been long gone

But you’ll always live in our song

I wonder if I’ll always be yours

When time passes and it’s called

And the radio station takes my request

And it plays to the beat in my chest

When our memories are all that’s left

Just remember we made them still

And just like that they’ll always be real

And…we… made

Music for a lifetime

And… If… you

Stay in my lifeline

Know that it’s forever trapped

In our song that will forever last

::MISS MY BODY::

I know that love ain’t like this

Your body got me tainted

Your taste left me addicted

Passing time I guess I’m just waiting

And you know it won’t feel the same

Fucking others without any shame

You’ll miss my body in your body

Thinking thinking thinking of it

Has you going crazier probably

Because I know you love it love it love it

Our sex was as addictive as a drug is

Lemme get a hit… just a hit

Lemme grab you by the hips

Lemme argue and bite your lips

Lemme be the one you’ll always miss

I know when he touches you…

I’m the one who always fulfilled your wish

Lemme know if that thought makes you sick

You’ll miss my body in your body

Thinking thinking thinking of it

Has you going crazier probably

Because I know you love it love it love it

Our sex was as addictive as a drug is

I’m the sweetest drug

I had your mind twisted always

I have the deepest love

I had your body twisted in all ways

Talking dirty and following action

You’ll walk the earth searching for my passion

You’ll miss my body in your body

Thinking thinking thinking of it

Has you going crazier probably

Because I know you love it love it love it

Our sex was as addictive as a drug is

Are you over it

Are you over it

Over it

Come over quick

So I can make you cum all over this

::NO FOREVER STOPS::

Feeling like tree tops far up like skyscrapers/It’s love in the form of lines on paper/

My high has me dreaming past infinity/

Octane in my veins form this synergy/

Listen closely… Can you actually hear me?/

Whistle tunes of whimsical heartbeats/

I’m home, you make it hard to leave/

Hold hands stranded alone with you/

You keep my mind busy with truth/

Waiting turns while turnstiles spinning/

The world is here at our beginning/

Late for class but I have you on my syllabus/

Yearning your time 24 hours and minutes plus/

Deep deep bottomless pits for better drops/

Of sweet endless thoughts where no forever stops. 

::DEATH OF A SOUL::

Passing time of rewinded memories

Fast forwarding pain sent to me

Sun shaded by this dark past

Escaping clouds in a dark path 

Remind me again of a child’s smile

The world has been gone for awhile 
Rain drops kiss window panes 

Death of a soul

Like tears from a widows pain

Thoughts from far ago

That’s just as far as this pain will go

Death of a soul
Broken mirror images of past regret

Touching my arm as you ask again 

That forgiveness lost it’s meaning

Painful words that left scars bleeding

And your smile reminds me of your evil ways

The reality of my world that you pushed away
Rain drops kiss window panes 

Death of a soul

Like tears from a widows pain

Thoughts from far ago

That’s just as far as this pain will go

Death of a soul
Screams outside and crying inside

Can’t understand these dying tries

Looking around and nobody sees 

And everyone believes what they believe

If only your smile could set you free

The world was waiting for something you didn’t need 
Rain drops kiss window panes 

Death of a soul

Like tears from a widows pain

Thoughts from far ago

That’s just as far as this pain will go

Death of a soul