::WORTH::

Perfection slighted
Indecision tonight is 
Highlighted 

Waiting out this sunrise

Is it us or is it just sometimes

I can feel out all of these lies 
The truth hurts 

It’s true if it works 

For what it’s worth

Is it worthless to us
Fact or fiction 

All of this friction 

Depictions

Lost in not truly living 

Is it us or is it just us not giving

I can feel all of this here sitting
The truth hurts 

It’s true if it works 

For what it’s worth

Is it worthless to us
All of these lies

All of these facts 

All of these lies 

All of these facts 

Is it too much to ask

Is it too much to ask

To whom must I give thanks 

When everyone is shooting blanks 

::10 SHADES DARKER::

It was 10 shades darker than the brightest love/

Seems we’ve been reaching for the lies in us/

Years go by and still I feel our time was rushed/

Lost souls that don’t know the loss like us/

Coming apart at the seams of broken dreams/

We could of had it all lost in hopeless needs/

But talk unravels where our focus should peak/

Was it love or lust between no trust and no beliefs/

I see the streets filled with strangers trying to seek/

A deeper connection of that perfection we speak/

I regret many and certainly turned over another leaf/

But it died in me this love I spent years trying to reach/

It came weeks too early after expecting a lifetime/

And so I type lines that remind my mind/

Of frequent times that point to my life line/

Heartbreak is never kind when I write of mine/

But heartbreaks denied are just overlooked signs. 

::LOVE ENTRANCE::

  

Are my perfect imperfections 

Worth it even after rejections

Even after passing inspections 

Those evils are a hard and infectious

Memories of pain turn to life sentence 

Horrible dreams invading all my senses

Tears shed but they will never end this

But that’s when love made an entrance. 

::BLIND WONDERS::

  

I’m the sensational underachiever 

The ultimate nonbelievers dreamer

The quiet one till screams are heard

Silence breeds death I’m cured with words

The ignorant only want the best product 

Survival guide for life and love uncovered

Eyes reveal truth in a world of blind wonders. 

::HEARTS POUNDING::

So everybody’s perfect/

I guess now it’s all worth it/

Tell me how’s it working/

Oh child you’re still searching/

Heard you were asking/

Heard you were lacking/

Self love and emotional passion/

I’m aggressive yet passive/

Still stuck yet past this/

Absolutely changed…

Yea I bet you can’t imagine/

Turned so cold and savage/

I’m so cold, lost with no salvage/

Now all I care about is my outfits/

Only stick to what now fits/

And I change often get put out quick/

Yea, It’s quiet now, no more loudness/

Excluded you and all who doubt this/

No more keeping me down bitch/

I guess I might see you around bitch/

I don’t talk like this but my mouth switched/

Is it the pain that makes you sound selfish/

Or the experience of what your hell now is/

Maybe you’re confusing all this foulness/

Surrounded by adults acting so childish/

So far, it’s so hard, to walk away, these miles is/

Milestones as high as some mountains/

Turn back to my youth without fountains/

Put me in deep water and told me to now swim/

Gave me heartbreaks and told me to now think/

Gave me heartbreaks but I’m still alive…

Hearts pounding. 

::STARS::

This is state of the art/

The state of my art/

From the state of my heart/

Patronage of the art/

Straight from the heart…

I’m not paid for my art/

Just a place for this pain to be discard/

So they can’t say…

I didn’t make it this far/

From the words that’ve been taken apart/

For the souls taken at large/

They say you get what you give….

And that is labeled as charged/

They wonder If it was the pain…

That made you this hard/

Not realizing it was this fate that’s involved/ 

Faith that’s evolved/

They want to replace what you made great with their scars/

With no end in sight and can’t explain this part/

But I shine bright and remain in the stars. 

::EYES ON THE PRIZE::

They tried to defeat me and write me off/

But learning lessons aren’t like a loss/

For every reaction there’s a cause/

For every action no doubt there’s a cost…

I survived through the dark and the noise/

My heart even when broken kept me poised/

Taking chances… 

Falling down and getting up only takes advances/

Me and the hard times are like those hate&love romances/

I don’t live for the questions… 

I only find the answers/

Knowing difficulties are around the corner and won’t vanish/

I’ve done taken damage/

Been taken advantage/

But my roar is savage/

My will is isn’t average/

Still some wonder how I manage/

My character describes what this man is/

Those open hands is… Bad biz/

I can’t part for those not in my faction/

Not even a fraction/

Steady eyes on the prize with no distractions/

Can’t give up till I make it happen/

Haters laughing and doubt with an evil passion/

Reason I keep a smile on my face and keep passing/

On my way to the top of that mountain of my revival/

It’s been a key to my survival/

To push through and fight their denial. 

::HISTORY::

Concrete jungle/

Filled with sirens and hustle/

Where they either hate or love you/

And this illusion is a reality for a few/

So I rise and shine for the ultimate grind/

My mind shines, I’m a one of a kind/

Can’t find a crack or a weakness/

Your enemies talk down when they speak this/

Your rivals walk around unsteady when they see this/

They can’t believe this…./

After barrages and sabotages keeping you from complicated accomplishments/

Your will defeated the odds and didn’t comply with their vileness/

Watch them view you with unwanted astonishment/

As you break past their broken promises/

Because nobody can promise this/

Standing tall like a champ on your Mount Olympus for all to witness/

No give up or give in for this victory/

You are now a part of their history. 

::BITE ME::

I remember the way we…

You don’t remember maybe…

Hey see… 

Maybe you’ll remember me…

When I’m pushing up daisies…

Call me crazy…

But why haven’t you called me lately…

Heard you’re calling me crazy…

Protagonist or me just being lazy…

We can take it back to the 80’s…

Saw you across the street the other day but got lost in my A-D-D…

Nah just kidding oh do-re-mi…

Where do I stand with you, 

Oh please do rate me…

With or without you I’m doing great see…

No problems, no sour grapes see…

And yea I’m still waiting on Jay Z…

Still writing, you’re still lying, I see…

It’s cold in here, maybe you’re soul is icy…

Where we taking this, entice me…

Whether you like or don’t like me…

Doesn’t change a damn thing likely…

Bite me. 

::STILL FINDING MY PEACE::

Streets are serene 
Filled with chatter 
Bumping around the crowds
Looking for what matters
I’m lost before I’m found
Searching for an old sound 

I want to feel at ease
Hearing your voice 
Still finding my peace 

And they say it isn’t love
Till your heart bleeds
They’ll say it never was
Till every ounce of it leaves 

Tell me before 
I close these doors
What was on your mind
I just need to know more
If you’ve held the truth in 
Why was it so easy to lie 

I want to feel at ease
Hearing your voice 
Still finding my peace 

And they say it isn’t love
Till your heart bleeds
They’ll say it never was
Till every ounce of it leaves

And

I refuse to break
Holding this fate
Knowing your face
Has to be replaced

And 

I refuse to take
Is it really too late
Knowing these mistakes
Have to be erased