::ASK FOR LOVE::

Say your prayers/

For the naysayers/

And the haters/

Don’t forget your neighbors/

Who wish for your failures/

Oh you should get your mind off/

Now they say your minds lost/

Watching till your time exhausts/

So tell me how much a rewind costs/

So I can go back and tell y’all to get lost/

Oh you’re such a jerk now, such an asshole/

I’m deep into my work now, cash roll/

You used to be important in a past role/

Now you’re exhausted news, way past old/

You’ll always have a good hand and fold/

Me I’ll play the cards dealt and never hold/

Your Groundhog Day will ruin your soul/

Round and round till you waste your life away/

Guess we can’t all make these changes/

But don’t include me, I make statements/

I won’t include you, I made arrangements/

New world, New life, and I had to rearrange shit/

Just think of me as special operative or secret agent/

But it’s not a secret that these feelings are aging/

I got tired of being pushed around taken advantage of/

While everyone came up empty when I asked for love. 

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::HEARTS POUNDING::

So everybody’s perfect/

I guess now it’s all worth it/

Tell me how’s it working/

Oh child you’re still searching/

Heard you were asking/

Heard you were lacking/

Self love and emotional passion/

I’m aggressive yet passive/

Still stuck yet past this/

Absolutely changed…

Yea I bet you can’t imagine/

Turned so cold and savage/

I’m so cold, lost with no salvage/

Now all I care about is my outfits/

Only stick to what now fits/

And I change often get put out quick/

Yea, It’s quiet now, no more loudness/

Excluded you and all who doubt this/

No more keeping me down bitch/

I guess I might see you around bitch/

I don’t talk like this but my mouth switched/

Is it the pain that makes you sound selfish/

Or the experience of what your hell now is/

Maybe you’re confusing all this foulness/

Surrounded by adults acting so childish/

So far, it’s so hard, to walk away, these miles is/

Milestones as high as some mountains/

Turn back to my youth without fountains/

Put me in deep water and told me to now swim/

Gave me heartbreaks and told me to now think/

Gave me heartbreaks but I’m still alive…

Hearts pounding. 

::BITE ME::

I remember the way we…

You don’t remember maybe…

Hey see… 

Maybe you’ll remember me…

When I’m pushing up daisies…

Call me crazy…

But why haven’t you called me lately…

Heard you’re calling me crazy…

Protagonist or me just being lazy…

We can take it back to the 80’s…

Saw you across the street the other day but got lost in my A-D-D…

Nah just kidding oh do-re-mi…

Where do I stand with you, 

Oh please do rate me…

With or without you I’m doing great see…

No problems, no sour grapes see…

And yea I’m still waiting on Jay Z…

Still writing, you’re still lying, I see…

It’s cold in here, maybe you’re soul is icy…

Where we taking this, entice me…

Whether you like or don’t like me…

Doesn’t change a damn thing likely…

Bite me. 

::RELATIONSHIPS PENDING::

You’re so pretentious/

So damn aggressive/

You need some therapy…

Find out where your head is/

But damn that head is/

Yo… Let’s play a game of confession/

Broken hearts are part of the lesson/

But let it be the last time you question/

Don’t lie like I wasn’t the best shit/

That happened in your life…

Don’t try to kill off my ego’s progression/

Like not answering my text message/

Chick I know you got the message/

Why you all about the drama and tension/

Why can’t it all be simple…

Cause we can end this and end up on some friendship/

But you and I know there ain’t no friend shit/

Cause men lie women lie this pettiness is endless/

But we can pretend this/

Make amends if/

I was checking my social media and I wasn’t on your friends list/

You just wanna see me with clenched fist/

How did your appointment go at the dentist?/

See I cared enough to ask but your ass relentless/

Can’t finish my sentence/

Phone numbers changing man its senseless/

How many apologies do I have to mention?/

This is all a game to you…

Yea I get this/

Fuck it… Let’s just dead this/

Tired of these rejections/

Crushed dreams of weddings/

We let our fears create these very endings/

It’s just a relationship pending. 

::SAD SYMPHONIES::

Waking up while the sun is still rising

People with masks and lies disguising 

Talking chatter and sickening laughter 

People with tasks of happily ever after 

And I’m sitting in bed looking at fan blades spinning 

This world is losing and it’s filled with the ones sinning 
Sad symphonies 

Are we taking notes

Expecting the worse

Is that all we know

Is that all we know
Walking through these rain drops 

Wondering when the hate will stop

I saw someone from the past 

And I saw it was hard for them to laugh

I didn’t have to ask I just knew 

The pain of the past still lives in a few 
Sad symphonies 

Are we taking notes

Expecting the worse

Is that all we know

Is that all we know
And now I’m here all alone in this place

And it’s for the best and I feel so safe

Can’t understand why people are this way

Can’t trust anyone and I’m always looking away

My dreams are crumbling at the hands of the fake 

And now I’m here all alone… And all I can say
Sad symphonies 

Are we taking notes

Expecting the worse

Is that all we know

Is that all we know
Sad symphonies 

::CRUEL INTENSIONS:: 

Living in a world that’s in love with perfection/

Guess I’m the perfect imperfect rejection/

Or maybe I’m looking beyond my reflection/

It’s getting hard to trust one with my essence/

Betrayal of friends and lovers lead to lessons/

As I sit here writing words of my confessions/

Anxiety and overthinking in my every 

session/

It lead me to put lead to paper as my weapon/

A memoir of ill proportions and more tension/

Some things aren’t worth it and or questioned/

For the true colors will show of those with cruel intentions. 

::GIVE ME::

When the body it yearns

And the mind doesn’t learn

And were all just taking turns

What is it that you actually earned


So do you miss me 

When it’s all too risky

What do you wish me

More of the pain that you give me

Give me give me give me 


Painfully looking at our pictures

Were either victims or victors

They asked if I missed her

They ask if my hearts been injured


So do you miss me 

When it’s all too risky

What do you wish me

More of the pain that you give me

Give me give me give me


When sunshines don’t reach 

Blowing winds on an empty beach

What do broken hearts teach

More than the words of love can speak 


So do you miss me 

When it’s all too risky

What do you wish me

More of the pain that you give me

Give me give me give me


How could it all end shattered

Betrayed and souls battered 

I wish I could just ask her 

Was it us or did you only matter 


So do you miss me 

When it’s all too risky

What do you wish me

More of the pain that you give me

Give me give me give me

::WORSE CONCERNS::

I knew I couldn’t stay

It was coming to an end

Wasn’t much for us to say

Now I’m losing my only friend


Windows blurred discreetly

Tears running down freely

Stuck even with my feet beneath me 

Wishing you could believe me


(Chorus)

And we all need to be needed 

And we all just seem defeated 

Blinded even if we could see it

Sad love songs being repeated


Are you lost now

With nowhere to go

Wondering how

Standing with no hand to hold


Windows blurred discreetly

Tears running down freely

Stuck even with my feet beneath me 

Wishing you could believe me


(Chorus)

And we all need to be needed 

And we all just seem defeated 

Blinded even if we could see it

Sad love songs being repeated


The tables turnt

The lessons learnt 

The heart it burns

For just our worse concerns

::MISGUIDED::

I should have seen the signs
Translucent mind
You were so lost between the lines
And after the smoke cleared
Your soul was gone and disappeared.

(chorus)
And I know
It changed you
Now your worlds in a faint view
The way your pain chases you
Unfortunate misguided Angel.

Where did you end up on your trip
All alone perhaps because of this
For a few minutes of heavenly bliss
And after you came from the high
You couldn’t answer my good bye.

( chorus)
And I know
It changed you
Now your worlds in a faint view
The way your pain chases you
Unfortunate misguided Angels.

And was it worth it
Did it defeat the purpose
Did you ever reach the surface
Looking back now
I bet it was worthless…
Bet it was… And I bet it was.