::WORTH::

Perfection slighted
Indecision tonight is 
Highlighted 

Waiting out this sunrise

Is it us or is it just sometimes

I can feel out all of these lies 
The truth hurts 

It’s true if it works 

For what it’s worth

Is it worthless to us
Fact or fiction 

All of this friction 

Depictions

Lost in not truly living 

Is it us or is it just us not giving

I can feel all of this here sitting
The truth hurts 

It’s true if it works 

For what it’s worth

Is it worthless to us
All of these lies

All of these facts 

All of these lies 

All of these facts 

Is it too much to ask

Is it too much to ask

To whom must I give thanks 

When everyone is shooting blanks 

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::BLIND WONDERS::

  

I’m the sensational underachiever 

The ultimate nonbelievers dreamer

The quiet one till screams are heard

Silence breeds death I’m cured with words

The ignorant only want the best product 

Survival guide for life and love uncovered

Eyes reveal truth in a world of blind wonders. 

::HARD TO ERASE::

There has to be a better way/Looking around corners for better days/

The stars don’t shine like they used to/

Constant thinking has my mind confused to/

Look… I’m just sitting here trying to put it all together/

Maybe my math is wrong when it comes to forever/

Infinity signs/

They live in my mind/

I see designs of hearts and world structures/

What’s love what’s life…

what the fuck bruh/

I can’t even take criticism well lately/

Wanna be alone even though these women wanna date me/

Soon they’ll hate me judging off my present/

But my past fucked up… It’s like a death sentence/

And if I keep writing then you might get mentioned/

I don’t need this tension and drinking ain’t the answer/

I use to be happy go lucky but this heartbreak is a cancer/

I’m a disaster and I can’t help it/

Trying to love myself again and I feel selfish/

And the world don’t help this/

And I ain’t trying to see no therapist/

I keep thinking there gotta be some better shit/

Got a gym membership and tried to work out my pain/

Running miles thinking about fame/

Since you said my name wasn’t worth shit/

Maybe I’ll get a gig and get my words spit/

My nerves get the best of me/

Fuck it… I gave you what was left in me/

Fuck it… I thought me and you was destiny… But we would never be/

I’m empty… I don’t trust like I use to/

My friends say she just used you/

Death around the corner… 

So where’s the news crew?/

It’s all about the who’s who/

I swore I knew but I was confused too/

This is that true blue under the weather poetry/

I’ll be better off tomorrow for you just knowing me/

And showing me/

There’s nothing wrong with being a lonely me/

And I know the sky will clear up/

And maybe I’ll cheer up/

Maybe I’ll forget all this nonsense/

In fact I’ve been really calm since/

And settled into my own place/

Found myself again got my own place/

But memories still live in my thoughts…

It’s a part of the heart that’s hard to erase. 

::HURT ME::

Persecuted

From words diluted

Mind clouded 

Guess I’m just better suited

In a world far away from here

Where nobody is near

And nobody is near

And nobody can hear

The difference between 

You, my reality and our fears
I am no regrets I am no worries

Just give me a sec I’m in no hurry

And I didn’t ask if I was worthy 

All I asked was that you wouldn’t hurt me

But you hurt me… you hurt me 

Yea you hurt me… Oh you hurt me
Relegated 

Pushed aside and hesitated

Always debated and lied to 

You were so unmindful 

And you had my mind fooled

And now I wanna hide from you

Tears fall when I’m reminded of you

But I’ll be fine I’m cool 

I’m glad I won’t waste anymore time on you
I am no regrets I am no worries

Just give me a sec I’m in no hurry

And I didn’t ask if I was worthy 

All I asked was that you wouldn’t hurt me

But you hurt me… you hurt me 

Yea you hurt me… Oh you hurt me
Addicted

Tears and pain conflicted

No pity drawn in my image

Walking away a casualty of your sickness

Love torn battled this only witness

Blood scars and memories in vision

Barely alive… But I’m alive and kicking

Knowing there is nothing worth missing

For those pleas are no longer worth listening

::FITS::

Why does it feel like the room is spinning around/

Why is everything out of my control even when not allowed/

Cover my eyes and forget what the doubt is/

But the truth speaks the loudest…

So the downfall is that of the proudest/

I stood to think about this…

As the struggles mounted/

And to all my blessings that have been wrongfully counted/

Enemies that’ve been ousted/

That’s in the past and I’m more now’ish/

The wise hear the whispers clearly as if they were loudly sounded/

And my positives took those negatives and had them re-routed/

The scene clouded/

Beliefs and all about it/

Disappeared like fears with clear announcements/

I am here… I can no longer be taken down since/

I changed my mentalities outfit/

And put out what no longer now fits. 

::CRUEL INTENSIONS:: 

Living in a world that’s in love with perfection/

Guess I’m the perfect imperfect rejection/

Or maybe I’m looking beyond my reflection/

It’s getting hard to trust one with my essence/

Betrayal of friends and lovers lead to lessons/

As I sit here writing words of my confessions/

Anxiety and overthinking in my every 

session/

It lead me to put lead to paper as my weapon/

A memoir of ill proportions and more tension/

Some things aren’t worth it and or questioned/

For the true colors will show of those with cruel intentions. 

::GIVE ME::

When the body it yearns

And the mind doesn’t learn

And were all just taking turns

What is it that you actually earned


So do you miss me 

When it’s all too risky

What do you wish me

More of the pain that you give me

Give me give me give me 


Painfully looking at our pictures

Were either victims or victors

They asked if I missed her

They ask if my hearts been injured


So do you miss me 

When it’s all too risky

What do you wish me

More of the pain that you give me

Give me give me give me


When sunshines don’t reach 

Blowing winds on an empty beach

What do broken hearts teach

More than the words of love can speak 


So do you miss me 

When it’s all too risky

What do you wish me

More of the pain that you give me

Give me give me give me


How could it all end shattered

Betrayed and souls battered 

I wish I could just ask her 

Was it us or did you only matter 


So do you miss me 

When it’s all too risky

What do you wish me

More of the pain that you give me

Give me give me give me

::SOUL IS MISSING::

Distance distance distance 

It’s my persistence 

My hearts resistance

Through painful conditions

In looking for beautiful visions

Cloudy decisions

Topsy turvy intuition

Just wishful thinking

For what the soul is missing. 

::YOU::


You know you are so into you

And this world doesn’t exist

You are so selfish it’s true

I don’t even know why I persist

You don’t even need my fuel 

Yet you drain me of all this 

You swear you’re so cool

Compliments only when you insist

You know how to play the fool

But have a problem with my innocence

You can never ever be so cruel

Yet you leave me with this emptiness 

Its like your always in a constant duel

Till you find I’m at the end of this…

The you you it’s always gotta be you

What about the world I’m so confused

So mentally and physically abused

So ready to walk and unamused

Thinking you won I’m ready to lose

But you… Are you… Pardon the truth

But you don’t make it hard to choose

You make it obvious without the clue 

That it’s you you and always been you

I’m tired of giving and being left in recluse

This wasn’t the you…

That made the we I was hoping to choose

Now I see this is the you…

No way I can get back the time we lose…

Thank…. You. 

::DEEPER::

Where do we take

Love after it breaks

Trust and we’ve been lost

In the cusp of thinking of us 

The rush slows down

The heart beats were so loud 

As drums could beat 

Lost awake in a sleep 

And reality did seem 

As if you could rewrite a dream

Unraveled at the seams 

Redeemed a coupon for a new

Life in seek of the truth 

Beneath the lies assumed 

Consumed by the universe

Maybe it could be us

in another world

Where I saw diamonds and pearls

Designed on the perfect girl 

Whirlwinds and I take off 

No direction and I stay lost 

Finding my way when fate calls

No days off I took years already

Heart heavy and…

You’re..

All..

Hiding.. 

Never.. 

Zealously.. 

Yielding anything of a deeper meaning.