::DEAF EARS::

  

I see dark clouds engaged in brightness

I guess this is what they say the fight is

Taking positives over all of those minuses

Nomad for years I’m settling with pioneers

Tears dried up since the cries disappeared

Looking for love to devour all of my fears 

Falling from the sky upon many deaf ears. 

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::THOUGHTS::

  
I’m taking in all of these moments

Spotlighting this time with focus

As deep as where my zone is

They say the heart is where the home is

So why have I been wandering homeless

I heard of love but it appeared to be just voices

Where I learned love overcomes fear is just part of our choices. 

::WRITE::

  

Solitude has nurtured after taking a toll

From heartbreaks that tortured my soul

Godly beliefs that my someday will come

And the pain and memories no longer run

Deep inside my mind with regrets I find 

I’m crossing the line searching for a sign

That life is love and this love is for life 

When righting my wrongs isn’t enough to write. 

::10 SHADES DARKER::

It was 10 shades darker than the brightest love/

Seems we’ve been reaching for the lies in us/

Years go by and still I feel our time was rushed/

Lost souls that don’t know the loss like us/

Coming apart at the seams of broken dreams/

We could of had it all lost in hopeless needs/

But talk unravels where our focus should peak/

Was it love or lust between no trust and no beliefs/

I see the streets filled with strangers trying to seek/

A deeper connection of that perfection we speak/

I regret many and certainly turned over another leaf/

But it died in me this love I spent years trying to reach/

It came weeks too early after expecting a lifetime/

And so I type lines that remind my mind/

Of frequent times that point to my life line/

Heartbreak is never kind when I write of mine/

But heartbreaks denied are just overlooked signs. 

::LOVE ENTRANCE::

  

Are my perfect imperfections 

Worth it even after rejections

Even after passing inspections 

Those evils are a hard and infectious

Memories of pain turn to life sentence 

Horrible dreams invading all my senses

Tears shed but they will never end this

But that’s when love made an entrance. 

::ASK FOR LOVE::

Say your prayers/

For the naysayers/

And the haters/

Don’t forget your neighbors/

Who wish for your failures/

Oh you should get your mind off/

Now they say your minds lost/

Watching till your time exhausts/

So tell me how much a rewind costs/

So I can go back and tell y’all to get lost/

Oh you’re such a jerk now, such an asshole/

I’m deep into my work now, cash roll/

You used to be important in a past role/

Now you’re exhausted news, way past old/

You’ll always have a good hand and fold/

Me I’ll play the cards dealt and never hold/

Your Groundhog Day will ruin your soul/

Round and round till you waste your life away/

Guess we can’t all make these changes/

But don’t include me, I make statements/

I won’t include you, I made arrangements/

New world, New life, and I had to rearrange shit/

Just think of me as special operative or secret agent/

But it’s not a secret that these feelings are aging/

I got tired of being pushed around taken advantage of/

While everyone came up empty when I asked for love. 

::EMPTY SOUL::

You wanted my everything/

I don’t want anything/

You pulled my every string…

Pushed my every button/

Thought we had something/

It quickly became nothing…

From having it all to no/

From laughing with someone I don’t know/

I won’t ask from here where do we go/

It’s dying slow the character you were/

Nothing real only illusions that occurred/

Professional happiness saboteur/

No self love having miserable amateur/

Pasture filled with nothing but lonely roads/

Wandering disasters of an empty soul. 

Crash crash burn

You ask but don’t learn

Crash crash till you collapse

I guess it’s only right…

That I write about that last laugh. 

Empty eyes with nothing to hold
Words empty with nothing told
Actions paid for by actors sold 
Hooray you made fake last till it’s known 
Empty soul.. empty soul.. empty soul. 

::HEARTS POUNDING::

So everybody’s perfect/

I guess now it’s all worth it/

Tell me how’s it working/

Oh child you’re still searching/

Heard you were asking/

Heard you were lacking/

Self love and emotional passion/

I’m aggressive yet passive/

Still stuck yet past this/

Absolutely changed…

Yea I bet you can’t imagine/

Turned so cold and savage/

I’m so cold, lost with no salvage/

Now all I care about is my outfits/

Only stick to what now fits/

And I change often get put out quick/

Yea, It’s quiet now, no more loudness/

Excluded you and all who doubt this/

No more keeping me down bitch/

I guess I might see you around bitch/

I don’t talk like this but my mouth switched/

Is it the pain that makes you sound selfish/

Or the experience of what your hell now is/

Maybe you’re confusing all this foulness/

Surrounded by adults acting so childish/

So far, it’s so hard, to walk away, these miles is/

Milestones as high as some mountains/

Turn back to my youth without fountains/

Put me in deep water and told me to now swim/

Gave me heartbreaks and told me to now think/

Gave me heartbreaks but I’m still alive…

Hearts pounding. 

::STARS::

This is state of the art/

The state of my art/

From the state of my heart/

Patronage of the art/

Straight from the heart…

I’m not paid for my art/

Just a place for this pain to be discard/

So they can’t say…

I didn’t make it this far/

From the words that’ve been taken apart/

For the souls taken at large/

They say you get what you give….

And that is labeled as charged/

They wonder If it was the pain…

That made you this hard/

Not realizing it was this fate that’s involved/ 

Faith that’s evolved/

They want to replace what you made great with their scars/

With no end in sight and can’t explain this part/

But I shine bright and remain in the stars. 

::EYES ON THE PRIZE::

They tried to defeat me and write me off/

But learning lessons aren’t like a loss/

For every reaction there’s a cause/

For every action no doubt there’s a cost…

I survived through the dark and the noise/

My heart even when broken kept me poised/

Taking chances… 

Falling down and getting up only takes advances/

Me and the hard times are like those hate&love romances/

I don’t live for the questions… 

I only find the answers/

Knowing difficulties are around the corner and won’t vanish/

I’ve done taken damage/

Been taken advantage/

But my roar is savage/

My will is isn’t average/

Still some wonder how I manage/

My character describes what this man is/

Those open hands is… Bad biz/

I can’t part for those not in my faction/

Not even a fraction/

Steady eyes on the prize with no distractions/

Can’t give up till I make it happen/

Haters laughing and doubt with an evil passion/

Reason I keep a smile on my face and keep passing/

On my way to the top of that mountain of my revival/

It’s been a key to my survival/

To push through and fight their denial.