::10 SHADES DARKER::

It was 10 shades darker than the brightest love/

Seems we’ve been reaching for the lies in us/

Years go by and still I feel our time was rushed/

Lost souls that don’t know the loss like us/

Coming apart at the seams of broken dreams/

We could of had it all lost in hopeless needs/

But talk unravels where our focus should peak/

Was it love or lust between no trust and no beliefs/

I see the streets filled with strangers trying to seek/

A deeper connection of that perfection we speak/

I regret many and certainly turned over another leaf/

But it died in me this love I spent years trying to reach/

It came weeks too early after expecting a lifetime/

And so I type lines that remind my mind/

Of frequent times that point to my life line/

Heartbreak is never kind when I write of mine/

But heartbreaks denied are just overlooked signs. 

::LOVE ENTRANCE::

  

Are my perfect imperfections 

Worth it even after rejections

Even after passing inspections 

Those evils are a hard and infectious

Memories of pain turn to life sentence 

Horrible dreams invading all my senses

Tears shed but they will never end this

But that’s when love made an entrance. 

::ASK FOR LOVE::

Say your prayers/

For the naysayers/

And the haters/

Don’t forget your neighbors/

Who wish for your failures/

Oh you should get your mind off/

Now they say your minds lost/

Watching till your time exhausts/

So tell me how much a rewind costs/

So I can go back and tell y’all to get lost/

Oh you’re such a jerk now, such an asshole/

I’m deep into my work now, cash roll/

You used to be important in a past role/

Now you’re exhausted news, way past old/

You’ll always have a good hand and fold/

Me I’ll play the cards dealt and never hold/

Your Groundhog Day will ruin your soul/

Round and round till you waste your life away/

Guess we can’t all make these changes/

But don’t include me, I make statements/

I won’t include you, I made arrangements/

New world, New life, and I had to rearrange shit/

Just think of me as special operative or secret agent/

But it’s not a secret that these feelings are aging/

I got tired of being pushed around taken advantage of/

While everyone came up empty when I asked for love. 

::EMPTY SOUL::

You wanted my everything/

I don’t want anything/

You pulled my every string…

Pushed my every button/

Thought we had something/

It quickly became nothing…

From having it all to no/

From laughing with someone I don’t know/

I won’t ask from here where do we go/

It’s dying slow the character you were/

Nothing real only illusions that occurred/

Professional happiness saboteur/

No self love having miserable amateur/

Pasture filled with nothing but lonely roads/

Wandering disasters of an empty soul. 

Crash crash burn

You ask but don’t learn

Crash crash till you collapse

I guess it’s only right…

That I write about that last laugh. 

Empty eyes with nothing to hold
Words empty with nothing told
Actions paid for by actors sold 
Hooray you made fake last till it’s known 
Empty soul.. empty soul.. empty soul. 

::HEARTS POUNDING::

So everybody’s perfect/

I guess now it’s all worth it/

Tell me how’s it working/

Oh child you’re still searching/

Heard you were asking/

Heard you were lacking/

Self love and emotional passion/

I’m aggressive yet passive/

Still stuck yet past this/

Absolutely changed…

Yea I bet you can’t imagine/

Turned so cold and savage/

I’m so cold, lost with no salvage/

Now all I care about is my outfits/

Only stick to what now fits/

And I change often get put out quick/

Yea, It’s quiet now, no more loudness/

Excluded you and all who doubt this/

No more keeping me down bitch/

I guess I might see you around bitch/

I don’t talk like this but my mouth switched/

Is it the pain that makes you sound selfish/

Or the experience of what your hell now is/

Maybe you’re confusing all this foulness/

Surrounded by adults acting so childish/

So far, it’s so hard, to walk away, these miles is/

Milestones as high as some mountains/

Turn back to my youth without fountains/

Put me in deep water and told me to now swim/

Gave me heartbreaks and told me to now think/

Gave me heartbreaks but I’m still alive…

Hearts pounding. 

::SOULMATE::

  
So you’re soulmates/

Yea….That’s so great/

So we’re we… That’s no fate/

No faith… No taste… Wait… No wait/

Speeding things up and showed faith/

Hold up…time out… this is no race/

Screw things up now you won’t show face/

Holed up and heart held captive for no place/

No responsibility, it’s show you have no grace/

I hope they know how to go from being great to being replaced/

Free ride for love but your a heartbreak cheapskate/

Bad memories are worse when their a keep sake/

Arguments and name calling, now we need space/

But what I wished for couldn’t be erased/

Lesson learnt… And your the teachers name/

What’s love… Really what’s your love… You should be ashamed/

Soulmate. Sold faith. Soulmate. So great. Soulmate. Takes no blame. Soulmate. No remains. Soulmate. Oh wait. Soulmate. Two faced. Soulmate…Not to one but so many who don’t know until it’s too late.  

 

::BITE ME::

I remember the way we…

You don’t remember maybe…

Hey see… 

Maybe you’ll remember me…

When I’m pushing up daisies…

Call me crazy…

But why haven’t you called me lately…

Heard you’re calling me crazy…

Protagonist or me just being lazy…

We can take it back to the 80’s…

Saw you across the street the other day but got lost in my A-D-D…

Nah just kidding oh do-re-mi…

Where do I stand with you, 

Oh please do rate me…

With or without you I’m doing great see…

No problems, no sour grapes see…

And yea I’m still waiting on Jay Z…

Still writing, you’re still lying, I see…

It’s cold in here, maybe you’re soul is icy…

Where we taking this, entice me…

Whether you like or don’t like me…

Doesn’t change a damn thing likely…

Bite me. 

::MEET YOU:: 

Truth is, I can see your evil

Didn’t think it existed in people

But your kiss was toxic 

And your supposed love was lethal

And each innocent passing person 

Is a victim in a line of your sequels

Your soul is see through

Your heart black with no equal 

Do wrong but expect one to need you

And the only regret I have…

Is the day I left my house to meet you.

::STILL FINDING MY PEACE::

Streets are serene 
Filled with chatter 
Bumping around the crowds
Looking for what matters
I’m lost before I’m found
Searching for an old sound 

I want to feel at ease
Hearing your voice 
Still finding my peace 

And they say it isn’t love
Till your heart bleeds
They’ll say it never was
Till every ounce of it leaves 

Tell me before 
I close these doors
What was on your mind
I just need to know more
If you’ve held the truth in 
Why was it so easy to lie 

I want to feel at ease
Hearing your voice 
Still finding my peace 

And they say it isn’t love
Till your heart bleeds
They’ll say it never was
Till every ounce of it leaves

And

I refuse to break
Holding this fate
Knowing your face
Has to be replaced

And 

I refuse to take
Is it really too late
Knowing these mistakes
Have to be erased 

::TAKE US AWAY:: 

Remember skies bright 
Shining like lights 
Clouds came unannounced
And with heartbeat sounds
Confusing our ways 
Just like love songs gone astray

But…

Tomorrow is coming soon and I’m asking 
Can’t we just live for another day
Act like it never happened 
And let the memories take us away

Time to unpack thoughts make empty spaces
Beach waves to subway stations
Late nights filled with our ovations
The crowd starts to cheer us on 
The energy fills the room till its gone
Just one more time they want to hear our song

But…

Tomorrow is coming soon and I’m asking 
Can’t we just live for another day
Act like it never happened 
And let the memories take us away

First date
Kiss under the moon just wait 
For early morning walks 
And 3:30am long talks
Fighting through snow piles
It’s no wonder we haven’t found love in awhile
Favorite shows
Bus stops that go
On like forever…
Do you ever…
Dream of us together…
Just take us away.