::WORTH::

Perfection slighted
Indecision tonight is 
Highlighted 

Waiting out this sunrise

Is it us or is it just sometimes

I can feel out all of these lies 
The truth hurts 

It’s true if it works 

For what it’s worth

Is it worthless to us
Fact or fiction 

All of this friction 

Depictions

Lost in not truly living 

Is it us or is it just us not giving

I can feel all of this here sitting
The truth hurts 

It’s true if it works 

For what it’s worth

Is it worthless to us
All of these lies

All of these facts 

All of these lies 

All of these facts 

Is it too much to ask

Is it too much to ask

To whom must I give thanks 

When everyone is shooting blanks 

::DREAM AWAKE::

  

Cutting across all of my losses 

Winning no matter what the cost is

Lost in daydreams that turned reality

The world stopped spinning off my gravity

Actually where my minds whirlwind begins

Is in between all of the good and the sins

Where my kin showed up more water than blood

Hard to believe there was more hate than love

Still I see the clouds above changing shape

Was it me or the dreams keeping me awake

::DEAF EARS::

  

I see dark clouds engaged in brightness

I guess this is what they say the fight is

Taking positives over all of those minuses

Nomad for years I’m settling with pioneers

Tears dried up since the cries disappeared

Looking for love to devour all of my fears 

Falling from the sky upon many deaf ears. 

::EMPTY SOUL::

You wanted my everything/

I don’t want anything/

You pulled my every string…

Pushed my every button/

Thought we had something/

It quickly became nothing…

From having it all to no/

From laughing with someone I don’t know/

I won’t ask from here where do we go/

It’s dying slow the character you were/

Nothing real only illusions that occurred/

Professional happiness saboteur/

No self love having miserable amateur/

Pasture filled with nothing but lonely roads/

Wandering disasters of an empty soul. 

Crash crash burn

You ask but don’t learn

Crash crash till you collapse

I guess it’s only right…

That I write about that last laugh. 

Empty eyes with nothing to hold
Words empty with nothing told
Actions paid for by actors sold 
Hooray you made fake last till it’s known 
Empty soul.. empty soul.. empty soul. 

::HEARTS POUNDING::

So everybody’s perfect/

I guess now it’s all worth it/

Tell me how’s it working/

Oh child you’re still searching/

Heard you were asking/

Heard you were lacking/

Self love and emotional passion/

I’m aggressive yet passive/

Still stuck yet past this/

Absolutely changed…

Yea I bet you can’t imagine/

Turned so cold and savage/

I’m so cold, lost with no salvage/

Now all I care about is my outfits/

Only stick to what now fits/

And I change often get put out quick/

Yea, It’s quiet now, no more loudness/

Excluded you and all who doubt this/

No more keeping me down bitch/

I guess I might see you around bitch/

I don’t talk like this but my mouth switched/

Is it the pain that makes you sound selfish/

Or the experience of what your hell now is/

Maybe you’re confusing all this foulness/

Surrounded by adults acting so childish/

So far, it’s so hard, to walk away, these miles is/

Milestones as high as some mountains/

Turn back to my youth without fountains/

Put me in deep water and told me to now swim/

Gave me heartbreaks and told me to now think/

Gave me heartbreaks but I’m still alive…

Hearts pounding. 

::MEET YOU::

Truth is, I can see your evil

Didn’t think it existed in people

But your kiss was toxic 

And your supposed love was lethal

And each innocent passing person 

Is a victim in a line of your sequels

Your soul is see through

Your heart black with no equal 

Do wrong but expect one to need you

And the only regret I have…

Is the day I left my house to meet you.

::HARD TO ERASE::

There has to be a better way/Looking around corners for better days/

The stars don’t shine like they used to/

Constant thinking has my mind confused to/

Look… I’m just sitting here trying to put it all together/

Maybe my math is wrong when it comes to forever/

Infinity signs/

They live in my mind/

I see designs of hearts and world structures/

What’s love what’s life…

what the fuck bruh/

I can’t even take criticism well lately/

Wanna be alone even though these women wanna date me/

Soon they’ll hate me judging off my present/

But my past fucked up… It’s like a death sentence/

And if I keep writing then you might get mentioned/

I don’t need this tension and drinking ain’t the answer/

I use to be happy go lucky but this heartbreak is a cancer/

I’m a disaster and I can’t help it/

Trying to love myself again and I feel selfish/

And the world don’t help this/

And I ain’t trying to see no therapist/

I keep thinking there gotta be some better shit/

Got a gym membership and tried to work out my pain/

Running miles thinking about fame/

Since you said my name wasn’t worth shit/

Maybe I’ll get a gig and get my words spit/

My nerves get the best of me/

Fuck it… I gave you what was left in me/

Fuck it… I thought me and you was destiny… But we would never be/

I’m empty… I don’t trust like I use to/

My friends say she just used you/

Death around the corner… 

So where’s the news crew?/

It’s all about the who’s who/

I swore I knew but I was confused too/

This is that true blue under the weather poetry/

I’ll be better off tomorrow for you just knowing me/

And showing me/

There’s nothing wrong with being a lonely me/

And I know the sky will clear up/

And maybe I’ll cheer up/

Maybe I’ll forget all this nonsense/

In fact I’ve been really calm since/

And settled into my own place/

Found myself again got my own place/

But memories still live in my thoughts…

It’s a part of the heart that’s hard to erase. 

::THE HEARTBREAK LAW::

Here’s the story…Here’s the story…

Here’s the story…
Ladies and gentlemen…

Grab a seat and sit back to this/

Maybe some of it will comes off as irrelevant/

A story about man and women…

And it was supposed to be so heaven sent/

But somewhere along the line… 

It got jumbled like how the letters get/

Pay attention to sentences and don’t lose your place/

Please allow me to trace the timetable like stars that grace our Space/

Indent and space paragraphs that won’t soon be replaced/

See this young man fell in love with a sweet face/

But he ain’t/

Or wasn’t…as I should say/

Prepared for the about face and all the craze/

But there he stood trying to chase…

Waterfalls/

And that’s when disorder calls/

It’s more like the laws of physics/

See he was physically and spiritually attracted to this misses/

Put big diamonds on her ring finger/

No doubt in his mind lingered/

Skin tone ginger/

Eyes that could tranquilize your inners/

Not for the faint of heart or beginners/

She went from hold to as cold as a New York winter/

Fastest than a New York minute and his ego was injured/

See the man had to remove all the splinters from his heart/

Vowed it would never again happen… His soul turned hard/

It wasn’t hard to see he was easily scar’d/

But he was a man no less so he was in charge/

Of his emotional and mental state that were held at large/

Looking into the sky he would tell the stars/

If I prayed for one day to have a love so endless/

How could you send this/

The stars replied…

Cause to understand love you must endure a pain so senseless/

Wait… Excuse me… Let’s just pretend this/

Never happened… But the star was relentless/

Cause the man had to learn from this lesson/

And it was…
Love never hurts and when it does it was real….

But it takes two to make it feel and give it that real appeal…

So some come and go and they might steal…

A piece of your heart and it will reveal…

A part of yourself you never saw…

And that’s called the heartbreak law.

::RELATIONSHIPS PENDING::

You’re so pretentious/

So damn aggressive/

You need some therapy…

Find out where your head is/

But damn that head is/

Yo… Let’s play a game of confession/

Broken hearts are part of the lesson/

But let it be the last time you question/

Don’t lie like I wasn’t the best shit/

That happened in your life…

Don’t try to kill off my ego’s progression/

Like not answering my text message/

Chick I know you got the message/

Why you all about the drama and tension/

Why can’t it all be simple…

Cause we can end this and end up on some friendship/

But you and I know there ain’t no friend shit/

Cause men lie women lie this pettiness is endless/

But we can pretend this/

Make amends if/

I was checking my social media and I wasn’t on your friends list/

You just wanna see me with clenched fist/

How did your appointment go at the dentist?/

See I cared enough to ask but your ass relentless/

Can’t finish my sentence/

Phone numbers changing man its senseless/

How many apologies do I have to mention?/

This is all a game to you…

Yea I get this/

Fuck it… Let’s just dead this/

Tired of these rejections/

Crushed dreams of weddings/

We let our fears create these very endings/

It’s just a relationship pending. 

::OUR SONG::

I wanted to know you

Beyond reasons I could go

To understand the causes

Of time and these love loses

And so I came across us tonight

In a song that would last for life

We made memories in a melody

Memories that still tempt me

And I know you’ve been long gone

But you’ll always live in our song

Woke up and replayed it

A thousand times and I’ll fake it

Not having you to dance with

And it’s hard cause I know your past it

But I rewind it right to our part

It was so beautiful at our very start

We made memories in that melody

Memories that still tempt me

And I know you’ve been long gone

But you’ll always live in our song

I wonder if I’ll always be yours

When time passes and it’s called

And the radio station takes my request

And it plays to the beat in my chest

When our memories are all that’s left

Just remember we made them still

And just like that they’ll always be real

And…we… made

Music for a lifetime

And… If… you

Stay in my lifeline

Know that it’s forever trapped

In our song that will forever last