::AWAKENED::

I’ve made up my mind

There’s no turning back

I saw all of the signs 

It’s all just one big act

Should have saw it all before

Now time is against us

We’ll never get those memories

Wondering if dreams remember me 


The words were written 

But they were never spoken 

And the time was taken 

All before we could have awakened 


Don’t know what I was thinking

It was all gone before I opened mine

Sometimes we don’t know what were missing

Till were all alone in a hopeless bind

Becoming strangers passing under street lights 

Walking away with no option to stay

The days in these lives

With nothing else left to say


The words were written 

But they were never spoken 

And the time was taken 

All before we could have awakened


Couldn’t we just press rewind 

Couldn’t we just walk on by 

Couldn’t we just dismiss the lies

All the unseen from the naked eye

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::PROCESSED::

What is really killing our hoods…/

Is it me? You? The guns? 

Or just the processed goods/

Fifty cents it’s all takes for a Tropical Fantasy/

Just more hospital bills for inner city families if you ask me/

Wise or Lays potato chips saturated in grease/

Another heart attack so may they rest in peace/

Gotta get that snack box Kennedy for some fried chicken/

Save a few dollars cause it’s still finger lickin’/

A 2 piece side of fries my eyes cloudy from cholesterol vision/

Worse than a AK thats sprayed in broad day around the way/

Feeding our children Chef Boy Ar Dey before they play/

Sitting on the shelf for months so called fresh canned foods/

So many chemicals in there to give ya man boobs/

What’s organic about Campbell’s or Ramen noodles/

Microwave your brain cells might as well suit you/

Always in a rush so the culture fast foods you/

But they fast fooled you because there’s sugar in fruit juice too/

These CEO’s knew you’d get addicted though with no refusal/

Every weekly C Town ad has the worst food at 6 for $2/

Frozen pizza more priceless than the Mona Lisa/

Maxing out your credit cards on munchies after smoking some reefa/

Charms blow pops I gotta get that gum in the middle see/

Somebody get me some anbesol for my rotting cracked teeth/

Chick-o-Sticks… Now Chico’s sick/

And his girlfriend is unhappy with his dysfunctional dic…/

McDonald’s and Burger King will never go bankrupt/

But I’m sure you will die once your heart erupts/

From 20 nuggets for a few dollars I’d waste/

Who cares if it add a few inches around my waist/

The taste is mmmm mmmm good…/

Now think about what’s really killing our hoods. 

::LOST::


We can never escape our memories

Climb out of these painful entities 

Far lost and gone deep long away 

Understand that this is the only way

If I could explain who would hear me

Anyway if so the couldn’t see clearly

You may have gotten out unscathed 

I’m still finding directions misplaced 


Lost…

Gone and alone…

What’s the cost of finding a home…

Because I’m lost in the unknown


It was too easy getting comfortable

Blinded and vulnerable and out of view

Right or wrong, I have the right to the truth

When lonely roads are all behind you 

And some questions are better unanswered

With no need to know the cause of disasters

Whirlwinds of deceit and heavy rain 

Seems to be the pattern for everyones pain 


Lost…

Gone and alone…

What’s the cost of finding a home…

Because I’m lost in the unknown


Giving false directions

Taking a few wrong turns

Just one of the few lessons

This is what I’ve learned 

Broken maps for the hopeless

You lead me wrong and you know this

Loving the lost and soulless

Left my heart cold and homeless 

::SOMETHING MORE::

I should have known better

It was too good to be true

And things don’t ever last forever

What happened between me and you

I could have sworn it would last

But we got burned by your past

Things I know I should have asked 

Now were down to our last dance 


And we move till we can’t move at all 

And we win till there’s nothing to lose at all 

It’s all or nothing till it’s nothing at all

I wanted something… Something more


I was caught off guard 

My heart made all my choices 

The love I had made it hard 

To listen to all the voices

I could have sworn but it went fast 

And we got burned by your past

Things I know I should have asked 

Now were down to our last glance 


And we move till we can’t move at all 

And we win till there’s nothing to lose at all 

It’s all or nothing till it’s nothing at all

I wanted something… Something more


I needed and I wanted 

Though I never got it

I turned and I twisted 

I know it went fast and I missed it

Standing in front of this closed door…

I wanted something… Something more 

::CRUEL INTENSIONS:: 

Living in a world that’s in love with perfection/

Guess I’m the perfect imperfect rejection/

Or maybe I’m looking beyond my reflection/

It’s getting hard to trust one with my essence/

Betrayal of friends and lovers lead to lessons/

As I sit here writing words of my confessions/

Anxiety and overthinking in my every 

session/

It lead me to put lead to paper as my weapon/

A memoir of ill proportions and more tension/

Some things aren’t worth it and or questioned/

For the true colors will show of those with cruel intentions. 

::BROKEN FACTS::

I was searching and searching 

And while love seemed unworthy

And it kept hurting and hurting

Even while I thought you heard me 

Like silent whispers in a loud place

Words that weren’t quite traced 

I swore there would never be a day

From the crowd I’d have to walk away


All I could…

Did all I could…

And when I look back

I held nothing back

From the broken hearts I attract 

We were broken from the facts 



Our love disappeared and wasn’t found

The truth hurt deeper than scars

I always thought we were bound 

But we crashed like speeding cars

And I knew I couldn’t fix it

The pain was such a quiet fiction 

Our chapter was coming to an end

There was nothing left to mend


All I could…

Did all I could…

And when I look back

I held nothing back

From the broken hearts I attract 

We were broken from the facts


We’ll wander and get lost 

We’ll come back because it’s home 

We’ll never learn from our mistakes

Tragedy of our loves miss takes

We’ll wander and get lost 

We’ll come back because it’s home 

We’ll never learn from our mistakes

Tragedy of our loves miss takes 

::GIVE ME::

When the body it yearns

And the mind doesn’t learn

And were all just taking turns

What is it that you actually earned


So do you miss me 

When it’s all too risky

What do you wish me

More of the pain that you give me

Give me give me give me 


Painfully looking at our pictures

Were either victims or victors

They asked if I missed her

They ask if my hearts been injured


So do you miss me 

When it’s all too risky

What do you wish me

More of the pain that you give me

Give me give me give me


When sunshines don’t reach 

Blowing winds on an empty beach

What do broken hearts teach

More than the words of love can speak 


So do you miss me 

When it’s all too risky

What do you wish me

More of the pain that you give me

Give me give me give me


How could it all end shattered

Betrayed and souls battered 

I wish I could just ask her 

Was it us or did you only matter 


So do you miss me 

When it’s all too risky

What do you wish me

More of the pain that you give me

Give me give me give me

::RUSH::

I will never remove this

It’s cemented in script 

Our forever was a sign

I’m reminded every time

Guess I’m the lucky one

Because it changed my life

And if they ask what happens

Tell them to read between the lines 


(Chorus)

Tears aren’t deep enough

These words will leave it up

To us…

To us and I believe your love

Was sent from above

But we got caught in the rush


Infinity couldn’t reach us here

So somehow the end is near

You saw the pain in my eyes

When ours was left behind

And the hours pass uncounted

And the days just mounted 

Where do we go for our tomorrow

Was your love mine or just borrowed 


(Chorus)

Tears aren’t deep enough

These words will leave it up

To us…

To us and I believe your love

Was sent from above

But we got caught in the rush


Tattooed in my mind

Just trying to find 

The escape to this ink

When all I do is think

Who’s left to trust

Caught up in the rush

::GOING PLACES::

Everywhere I look

It’s a hard reminder 

Gave all I could 

But I couldn’t find her 

And the time stops 

It starts up when I think

Till the bottom drops

The end of where we begin


(chorus)

Going places 

With no direction 

Knowing faces

With no intentions

My memory chases

The slowly fading and resting


Unanswered questions

Worlds spinning in our view

My minds clouded and jaded 

Just knowing you hate it

I saw it all before it happened 

Words not matching their actions

We fabricate and elaborate

But efforts go like a past date 


(chorus)

Going places 

With no direction 

Knowing faces

With no intentions

My memory chases

The slowly fading and resting



Our time is winding

No perfect timing 

The clocks hands are blinding

Inching up and climbing

Losing thoughts and crying

Lost in our silver linings 

::WORSE CONCERNS::

I knew I couldn’t stay

It was coming to an end

Wasn’t much for us to say

Now I’m losing my only friend


Windows blurred discreetly

Tears running down freely

Stuck even with my feet beneath me 

Wishing you could believe me


(Chorus)

And we all need to be needed 

And we all just seem defeated 

Blinded even if we could see it

Sad love songs being repeated


Are you lost now

With nowhere to go

Wondering how

Standing with no hand to hold


Windows blurred discreetly

Tears running down freely

Stuck even with my feet beneath me 

Wishing you could believe me


(Chorus)

And we all need to be needed 

And we all just seem defeated 

Blinded even if we could see it

Sad love songs being repeated


The tables turnt

The lessons learnt 

The heart it burns

For just our worse concerns