Cutting across all of my losses
Winning no matter what the cost is
Lost in daydreams that turned reality
The world stopped spinning off my gravity
Actually where my minds whirlwind begins
Is in between all of the good and the sins
Where my kin showed up more water than blood
Hard to believe there was more hate than love
Still I see the clouds above changing shape
Was it me or the dreams keeping me awake
I see dark clouds engaged in brightness
I guess this is what they say the fight is
Taking positives over all of those minuses
Nomad for years I’m settling with pioneers
Tears dried up since the cries disappeared
Looking for love to devour all of my fears
Falling from the sky upon many deaf ears.
I’m taking in all of these moments
Spotlighting this time with focus
As deep as where my zone is
They say the heart is where the home is
So why have I been wandering homeless
I heard of love but it appeared to be just voices
Where I learned love overcomes fear is just part of our choices.
Solitude has nurtured after taking a toll
From heartbreaks that tortured my soul
Godly beliefs that my someday will come
And the pain and memories no longer run
Deep inside my mind with regrets I find
I’m crossing the line searching for a sign
That life is love and this love is for life
When righting my wrongs isn’t enough to write.
It was 10 shades darker than the brightest love/
Seems we’ve been reaching for the lies in us/
Years go by and still I feel our time was rushed/
Lost souls that don’t know the loss like us/
Coming apart at the seams of broken dreams/
We could of had it all lost in hopeless needs/
But talk unravels where our focus should peak/
Was it love or lust between no trust and no beliefs/
I see the streets filled with strangers trying to seek/
A deeper connection of that perfection we speak/
I regret many and certainly turned over another leaf/
But it died in me this love I spent years trying to reach/
It came weeks too early after expecting a lifetime/
And so I type lines that remind my mind/
Of frequent times that point to my life line/
Heartbreak is never kind when I write of mine/
But heartbreaks denied are just overlooked signs.
Are my perfect imperfections
Worth it even after rejections
Even after passing inspections
Those evils are a hard and infectious
Memories of pain turn to life sentence
Horrible dreams invading all my senses
Tears shed but they will never end this
But that’s when love made an entrance.
I’m the sensational underachiever
The ultimate nonbelievers dreamer
The quiet one till screams are heard
Silence breeds death I’m cured with words
The ignorant only want the best product
Survival guide for life and love uncovered
Eyes reveal truth in a world of blind wonders.
No emotional connection
Just evoking regression
Provoking this obsession
Holding your regrets in
Tomorrows always come soon
And it always reveals our truth
Even after you’ve left the room
It will linger deep inside of you.
There has to be a better way/Looking around corners for better days/
The stars don’t shine like they used to/
Constant thinking has my mind confused to/
Look… I’m just sitting here trying to put it all together/
Maybe my math is wrong when it comes to forever/
Infinity signs/
They live in my mind/
I see designs of hearts and world structures/
What’s love what’s life…
what the fuck bruh/
I can’t even take criticism well lately/
Wanna be alone even though these women wanna date me/
Soon they’ll hate me judging off my present/
But my past fucked up… It’s like a death sentence/
And if I keep writing then you might get mentioned/
I don’t need this tension and drinking ain’t the answer/
I use to be happy go lucky but this heartbreak is a cancer/
I’m a disaster and I can’t help it/
Trying to love myself again and I feel selfish/
And the world don’t help this/
And I ain’t trying to see no therapist/
I keep thinking there gotta be some better shit/
Got a gym membership and tried to work out my pain/
Running miles thinking about fame/
Since you said my name wasn’t worth shit/
Maybe I’ll get a gig and get my words spit/
My nerves get the best of me/
Fuck it… I gave you what was left in me/
Fuck it… I thought me and you was destiny… But we would never be/
I’m empty… I don’t trust like I use to/
My friends say she just used you/
Death around the corner…
So where’s the news crew?/
It’s all about the who’s who/
I swore I knew but I was confused too/
This is that true blue under the weather poetry/
I’ll be better off tomorrow for you just knowing me/
And showing me/
There’s nothing wrong with being a lonely me/
And I know the sky will clear up/
And maybe I’ll cheer up/
Maybe I’ll forget all this nonsense/
In fact I’ve been really calm since/
And settled into my own place/
Found myself again got my own place/
But memories still live in my thoughts…
It’s a part of the heart that’s hard to erase.
Here’s the story…Here’s the story…
Here’s the story…
Ladies and gentlemen…
Grab a seat and sit back to this/
Maybe some of it will comes off as irrelevant/
A story about man and women…
And it was supposed to be so heaven sent/
But somewhere along the line…
It got jumbled like how the letters get/
Pay attention to sentences and don’t lose your place/
Please allow me to trace the timetable like stars that grace our Space/
Indent and space paragraphs that won’t soon be replaced/
See this young man fell in love with a sweet face/
But he ain’t/
Or wasn’t…as I should say/
Prepared for the about face and all the craze/
But there he stood trying to chase…
Waterfalls/
And that’s when disorder calls/
It’s more like the laws of physics/
See he was physically and spiritually attracted to this misses/
Put big diamonds on her ring finger/
No doubt in his mind lingered/
Skin tone ginger/
Eyes that could tranquilize your inners/
Not for the faint of heart or beginners/
She went from hold to as cold as a New York winter/
Fastest than a New York minute and his ego was injured/
See the man had to remove all the splinters from his heart/
Vowed it would never again happen… His soul turned hard/
It wasn’t hard to see he was easily scar’d/
But he was a man no less so he was in charge/
Of his emotional and mental state that were held at large/
Looking into the sky he would tell the stars/
If I prayed for one day to have a love so endless/
How could you send this/
The stars replied…
Cause to understand love you must endure a pain so senseless/
Wait… Excuse me… Let’s just pretend this/
Never happened… But the star was relentless/
Cause the man had to learn from this lesson/
And it was…
Love never hurts and when it does it was real….
But it takes two to make it feel and give it that real appeal…
So some come and go and they might steal…
A piece of your heart and it will reveal…
A part of yourself you never saw…
And that’s called the heartbreak law.
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