::DREAM AWAKE::

  

Cutting across all of my losses 

Winning no matter what the cost is

Lost in daydreams that turned reality

The world stopped spinning off my gravity

Actually where my minds whirlwind begins

Is in between all of the good and the sins

Where my kin showed up more water than blood

Hard to believe there was more hate than love

Still I see the clouds above changing shape

Was it me or the dreams keeping me awake

::DEAF EARS::

  

I see dark clouds engaged in brightness

I guess this is what they say the fight is

Taking positives over all of those minuses

Nomad for years I’m settling with pioneers

Tears dried up since the cries disappeared

Looking for love to devour all of my fears 

Falling from the sky upon many deaf ears. 

::THOUGHTS::

  
I’m taking in all of these moments

Spotlighting this time with focus

As deep as where my zone is

They say the heart is where the home is

So why have I been wandering homeless

I heard of love but it appeared to be just voices

Where I learned love overcomes fear is just part of our choices. 

::WRITE::

  

Solitude has nurtured after taking a toll

From heartbreaks that tortured my soul

Godly beliefs that my someday will come

And the pain and memories no longer run

Deep inside my mind with regrets I find 

I’m crossing the line searching for a sign

That life is love and this love is for life 

When righting my wrongs isn’t enough to write. 

::10 SHADES DARKER::

It was 10 shades darker than the brightest love/

Seems we’ve been reaching for the lies in us/

Years go by and still I feel our time was rushed/

Lost souls that don’t know the loss like us/

Coming apart at the seams of broken dreams/

We could of had it all lost in hopeless needs/

But talk unravels where our focus should peak/

Was it love or lust between no trust and no beliefs/

I see the streets filled with strangers trying to seek/

A deeper connection of that perfection we speak/

I regret many and certainly turned over another leaf/

But it died in me this love I spent years trying to reach/

It came weeks too early after expecting a lifetime/

And so I type lines that remind my mind/

Of frequent times that point to my life line/

Heartbreak is never kind when I write of mine/

But heartbreaks denied are just overlooked signs. 

::STARS::

This is state of the art/

The state of my art/

From the state of my heart/

Patronage of the art/

Straight from the heart…

I’m not paid for my art/

Just a place for this pain to be discard/

So they can’t say…

I didn’t make it this far/

From the words that’ve been taken apart/

For the souls taken at large/

They say you get what you give….

And that is labeled as charged/

They wonder If it was the pain…

That made you this hard/

Not realizing it was this fate that’s involved/ 

Faith that’s evolved/

They want to replace what you made great with their scars/

With no end in sight and can’t explain this part/

But I shine bright and remain in the stars. 

::EYES ON THE PRIZE::

They tried to defeat me and write me off/

But learning lessons aren’t like a loss/

For every reaction there’s a cause/

For every action no doubt there’s a cost…

I survived through the dark and the noise/

My heart even when broken kept me poised/

Taking chances… 

Falling down and getting up only takes advances/

Me and the hard times are like those hate&love romances/

I don’t live for the questions… 

I only find the answers/

Knowing difficulties are around the corner and won’t vanish/

I’ve done taken damage/

Been taken advantage/

But my roar is savage/

My will is isn’t average/

Still some wonder how I manage/

My character describes what this man is/

Those open hands is… Bad biz/

I can’t part for those not in my faction/

Not even a fraction/

Steady eyes on the prize with no distractions/

Can’t give up till I make it happen/

Haters laughing and doubt with an evil passion/

Reason I keep a smile on my face and keep passing/

On my way to the top of that mountain of my revival/

It’s been a key to my survival/

To push through and fight their denial. 

::CONQUER::

Can’t ever feel defeated/ 

This light shines on the depleted/

We take it or we leave it/

It’s with outstanding meaning/

This is my perseverance/

The strength engulfed in my spirit/

Some hear it… And some fear it/

This energy I find myself filled with/

Gives life and breaths fire into my soul/

Resurrects the structure of my bones/

Till I’m like a hard to move object of stone/

Holding my own wherever I tend to roam/

They expect me to fall and crawl on my own/

Cave under the pressure and stay out of the zone/

But I’m ready for the unknown it’s what I prepared for/

Therefore/

It’s like I’ve been here before/

It’s nothing but the more or less/

It’s all I have been built for in the flesh/

Conquer it and move on to the next. 

::FIND WHATS RIGHT::

If you find yourself in these pages
Words matching up to these sayings
If you still find your heart beating
Those are the words and your soul meeting

But…

You’re so distracted from the good in life… The good in life
Why can’t you step back and look at life… Just look at life
To busy trying to find what’s wrong to find what’s right… Just find what’s right

Some day you’ll wake up from your dreams
And it won’t be what you always conceived it would be
You shouldn’t stand there questioning motives
In clouded thoughts making it hard to notice

But…

You’re so distracted from the good in life… The good in life
Why can’t you step back and look at life… Just look at life
To busy trying to find what’s wrong to find what’s right… Just find what’s right

One man’s trash is another man’s treasure
One women’s loss is another women pleasure
It’s one life why should all our mistakes measure
And it’s no wonder they say never say never

::BELIEVED IN::

You were always trying to give me a hard time

Guess you’re just a product of a hard life

And all I wanted was truth and you gave me hard lies 

While digging through your soul and getting lost in your hard eyes

I can still see the looks you gave me

Drowning in them and they enslaved me

But your deepest pain isn’t why you hate me

Didn’t realize it then but I’m knowing lately

That…

I am not the reason… What’s the reason

I am not the reason… What’s the reason

Not everything you see should be believed in… Believed in… Believed in

I was trapped in trying to understand you

World turned upside down you’re a handful 

I saw the beauty in it all and you saw from a bad view

Maybe I didn’t take the time to sit there and ask you

I can still see the looks you gave me

Drowning in them and they enslaved me

But your deepest pain isn’t why you hate me

Didn’t realize it then but I’m knowing lately

That…

I am not the reason… What’s the reason

I am not the reason… What’s the reason 

Not everything you see should be believed in… Believed in… Believed in