::DREAM AWAKE::

  

Cutting across all of my losses 

Winning no matter what the cost is

Lost in daydreams that turned reality

The world stopped spinning off my gravity

Actually where my minds whirlwind begins

Is in between all of the good and the sins

Where my kin showed up more water than blood

Hard to believe there was more hate than love

Still I see the clouds above changing shape

Was it me or the dreams keeping me awake

::DEAF EARS::

  

I see dark clouds engaged in brightness

I guess this is what they say the fight is

Taking positives over all of those minuses

Nomad for years I’m settling with pioneers

Tears dried up since the cries disappeared

Looking for love to devour all of my fears 

Falling from the sky upon many deaf ears. 

::THOUGHTS::

  
I’m taking in all of these moments

Spotlighting this time with focus

As deep as where my zone is

They say the heart is where the home is

So why have I been wandering homeless

I heard of love but it appeared to be just voices

Where I learned love overcomes fear is just part of our choices. 

::WRITE::

  

Solitude has nurtured after taking a toll

From heartbreaks that tortured my soul

Godly beliefs that my someday will come

And the pain and memories no longer run

Deep inside my mind with regrets I find 

I’m crossing the line searching for a sign

That life is love and this love is for life 

When righting my wrongs isn’t enough to write. 

::10 SHADES DARKER::

It was 10 shades darker than the brightest love/

Seems we’ve been reaching for the lies in us/

Years go by and still I feel our time was rushed/

Lost souls that don’t know the loss like us/

Coming apart at the seams of broken dreams/

We could of had it all lost in hopeless needs/

But talk unravels where our focus should peak/

Was it love or lust between no trust and no beliefs/

I see the streets filled with strangers trying to seek/

A deeper connection of that perfection we speak/

I regret many and certainly turned over another leaf/

But it died in me this love I spent years trying to reach/

It came weeks too early after expecting a lifetime/

And so I type lines that remind my mind/

Of frequent times that point to my life line/

Heartbreak is never kind when I write of mine/

But heartbreaks denied are just overlooked signs. 

::ASK FOR LOVE::

Say your prayers/

For the naysayers/

And the haters/

Don’t forget your neighbors/

Who wish for your failures/

Oh you should get your mind off/

Now they say your minds lost/

Watching till your time exhausts/

So tell me how much a rewind costs/

So I can go back and tell y’all to get lost/

Oh you’re such a jerk now, such an asshole/

I’m deep into my work now, cash roll/

You used to be important in a past role/

Now you’re exhausted news, way past old/

You’ll always have a good hand and fold/

Me I’ll play the cards dealt and never hold/

Your Groundhog Day will ruin your soul/

Round and round till you waste your life away/

Guess we can’t all make these changes/

But don’t include me, I make statements/

I won’t include you, I made arrangements/

New world, New life, and I had to rearrange shit/

Just think of me as special operative or secret agent/

But it’s not a secret that these feelings are aging/

I got tired of being pushed around taken advantage of/

While everyone came up empty when I asked for love. 

::HEARTS POUNDING::

So everybody’s perfect/

I guess now it’s all worth it/

Tell me how’s it working/

Oh child you’re still searching/

Heard you were asking/

Heard you were lacking/

Self love and emotional passion/

I’m aggressive yet passive/

Still stuck yet past this/

Absolutely changed…

Yea I bet you can’t imagine/

Turned so cold and savage/

I’m so cold, lost with no salvage/

Now all I care about is my outfits/

Only stick to what now fits/

And I change often get put out quick/

Yea, It’s quiet now, no more loudness/

Excluded you and all who doubt this/

No more keeping me down bitch/

I guess I might see you around bitch/

I don’t talk like this but my mouth switched/

Is it the pain that makes you sound selfish/

Or the experience of what your hell now is/

Maybe you’re confusing all this foulness/

Surrounded by adults acting so childish/

So far, it’s so hard, to walk away, these miles is/

Milestones as high as some mountains/

Turn back to my youth without fountains/

Put me in deep water and told me to now swim/

Gave me heartbreaks and told me to now think/

Gave me heartbreaks but I’m still alive…

Hearts pounding. 

::STILL FINDING MY PEACE::

Streets are serene 
Filled with chatter 
Bumping around the crowds
Looking for what matters
I’m lost before I’m found
Searching for an old sound 

I want to feel at ease
Hearing your voice 
Still finding my peace 

And they say it isn’t love
Till your heart bleeds
They’ll say it never was
Till every ounce of it leaves 

Tell me before 
I close these doors
What was on your mind
I just need to know more
If you’ve held the truth in 
Why was it so easy to lie 

I want to feel at ease
Hearing your voice 
Still finding my peace 

And they say it isn’t love
Till your heart bleeds
They’ll say it never was
Till every ounce of it leaves

And

I refuse to break
Holding this fate
Knowing your face
Has to be replaced

And 

I refuse to take
Is it really too late
Knowing these mistakes
Have to be erased 

::ADDICT::

Trips of going no place like home

Now the worlds your only scapegoat

And I know your pain runs deep

Through endless nights of no sleep

Your body’s calling for another hit

Leaving love heartbroken and sick

You didn’t think about the damage

Reality gone and no way to manage


Addicted to the thought

It has your mind out of control

Out of line and trying to hold

Grasping onto a fantasy you only know


I can sense when your coming down

Is the room spinning round and round

Would you rather steal our happiness 

Do you even know what your habit is

You have a love for what you know

The higher you get the less you wanna go

I see you lost your soul in the smoke

You gave up hope a long time ago


Addicted to the thought

It has your mind out of control

Out of line and trying to hold

Grasping onto a fantasy you only know


Where does it take you

Does it make or break you

Is it reality or just a fake view

Why are you running…

Where does it take you

Addicted to mistakes too