::STARS::

This is state of the art/

The state of my art/

From the state of my heart/

Patronage of the art/

Straight from the heart…

I’m not paid for my art/

Just a place for this pain to be discard/

So they can’t say…

I didn’t make it this far/

From the words that’ve been taken apart/

For the souls taken at large/

They say you get what you give….

And that is labeled as charged/

They wonder If it was the pain…

That made you this hard/

Not realizing it was this fate that’s involved/ 

Faith that’s evolved/

They want to replace what you made great with their scars/

With no end in sight and can’t explain this part/

But I shine bright and remain in the stars. 

::EYES ON THE PRIZE::

They tried to defeat me and write me off/

But learning lessons aren’t like a loss/

For every reaction there’s a cause/

For every action no doubt there’s a cost…

I survived through the dark and the noise/

My heart even when broken kept me poised/

Taking chances… 

Falling down and getting up only takes advances/

Me and the hard times are like those hate&love romances/

I don’t live for the questions… 

I only find the answers/

Knowing difficulties are around the corner and won’t vanish/

I’ve done taken damage/

Been taken advantage/

But my roar is savage/

My will is isn’t average/

Still some wonder how I manage/

My character describes what this man is/

Those open hands is… Bad biz/

I can’t part for those not in my faction/

Not even a fraction/

Steady eyes on the prize with no distractions/

Can’t give up till I make it happen/

Haters laughing and doubt with an evil passion/

Reason I keep a smile on my face and keep passing/

On my way to the top of that mountain of my revival/

It’s been a key to my survival/

To push through and fight their denial. 

::CONQUER::

Can’t ever feel defeated/ 

This light shines on the depleted/

We take it or we leave it/

It’s with outstanding meaning/

This is my perseverance/

The strength engulfed in my spirit/

Some hear it… And some fear it/

This energy I find myself filled with/

Gives life and breaths fire into my soul/

Resurrects the structure of my bones/

Till I’m like a hard to move object of stone/

Holding my own wherever I tend to roam/

They expect me to fall and crawl on my own/

Cave under the pressure and stay out of the zone/

But I’m ready for the unknown it’s what I prepared for/

Therefore/

It’s like I’ve been here before/

It’s nothing but the more or less/

It’s all I have been built for in the flesh/

Conquer it and move on to the next. 

::HISTORY::

Concrete jungle/

Filled with sirens and hustle/

Where they either hate or love you/

And this illusion is a reality for a few/

So I rise and shine for the ultimate grind/

My mind shines, I’m a one of a kind/

Can’t find a crack or a weakness/

Your enemies talk down when they speak this/

Your rivals walk around unsteady when they see this/

They can’t believe this…./

After barrages and sabotages keeping you from complicated accomplishments/

Your will defeated the odds and didn’t comply with their vileness/

Watch them view you with unwanted astonishment/

As you break past their broken promises/

Because nobody can promise this/

Standing tall like a champ on your Mount Olympus for all to witness/

No give up or give in for this victory/

You are now a part of their history. 

::VICTORY::

Have them captivated/

Coming from the bottom…

Some are agitated that I made it/

Levitated/

Patiently waited… 

For the chance to become the greatest/

That’s where my faith is/

Fate is/

Pace by pace with/

Finding solutions deep in the matrix/

Lost and faded/

The cost debated/

See I’m all or nothing….

Its nothing at all if I can’t make it/

My sweat and blood is kept sacred/

Standing in front of my biggest obstacles…

And I’m ready to face them/

The dreams are alive…

And I’m ready to chase them/

The doubters shout…

But I’m ready to replace them/

Opportunities abroad…

And I’m ready to take them/

Opportunities are large…

And I can’t seem to waste them/

Nothing bigger than my heart….

When victory is where my aim is. 

::WHERE THE LIGHT IS::

They tried to capitalize/

Wishing on my demise/

But I’ve seen the eyes/

Of those of have tried/

Pushing and pulling hate/

It’s how I made my great escape/

Some don’t understand my ways/

Reason why I keep to myself today/

Damaged souls trying to take a toll/

Trying to make me fold from my mold/

But I won’t be sold out I’m priceless/

Understand my love for the life I live/

How my days struggled to where my nights is/

How I corrected my wrongs with the righteous/

And gave me the courage to write this/

Staggering out of the dark to where the light is. 
 

::CONFUSION::

Oh and if you smiled Would you stay awhile

Pick up all my broken pieces 

Where all my dreams could be us

If only you stayed this honest 

Because tomorrow is today’s promise

(Chorus)

Oh and I don’t know

And I’ve never been told

If love is real 

or if it’s all an illusion

So tell me how you feel

To me it’s all confusion

All confusion… All confusion
Ask me all about my day

Dig deep and find things to say

Open up my heart my soul to take

And don’t be gone before I wake 

Life is nothing but bitter mistakes 

But today’s promise can lead the way
(chorus)

Oh and I don’t know

And I’ve never been told

If love is real 

or if it’s all an illusion

So tell me how you feel

To me it’s all confusion

All confusion… All confusion 
Did you see my spot light 

Could you see me shine 

Was everything all right 

Tell me I don’t really mind

Cause I’m lost and I’m trying to find

The reason behind these broken promises of mine
To me it’s all confusion…

All confusion… 

To me it’s all confusion

All confusion 

::CHANGE::

I can still hear your voice

Messages on my phone

Crowded subway cars but I’m alone

It always seems I’m far from home

Passing under street lights

Where we paused to see life

9th Street in a history we can’t rewrite

How does it feel

What if our could have

Could have been everything

Would you have changed it all

Would you have changed it all

Would you have changed it at all

Bus rides going crosstown

Never been here before I’m lost now

Between heartbreak avenue

And losing it all just to have you

And I never fell so hard

And i’ve never felt so odd

But I jumped on with nowhere to go

But I just want to know

How does it feel

What if our could have

Could have been everything

Would you have changed it all

Would you have changed it all

Would you have changed it at all

Seasons change

And people change

It all seems so strange

Just your reasons to blame

Can’t believe you’re the same

Can’t believe you’re the same

I though you were my change

::MEMORIES::

I guess it’s my downfall

Surrounded by pain again

Cries unheard and I say

Will I ever find my way

Closing doors and throwing keys away

Will this be our last day

Memories that won’t fade

Memories that won’t fade

Why do they always stay

Why do they always stay

When they leave and it’s too late

Climbing walls with no end

Desperately hoping to speak

The light dims and the room

Goes dark just as I assumed

Rushed in love and it ends soon

Trapped in these thoughts are cruel

Memories that won’t fade

Memories that won’t fade

Why do they always stay

Why do they always stay

When they leave and it’s too late

You got exactly all you needed

My hearts stories won’t exceed it

When they ask for all this pain

Just know the memories remain

The kisses that won’t ever return

Thinking of all these lessens learned

Memories that last forever

Can’t erase what we had together

When even illusions seem real

There just memories that we’ll always feel

::HOW MUCH DOES LOVE COST::

How much does love really cost

The goodness of me that’s continuously lost?

Between the lies and illusions of thoughts

Is it normal that this pain is my source

Or is it overthinking and non conclusive

Attracting partners that have been abusive

Trading in the selfless for the selfish

Believing it was heaven but it was hellish

Isolated from the world I could tell this

Wasn’t what I needed

Blinded from the truth I couldn’t see it

Yearning for that love I could feel it

Given to me in increments before once again being defeated

I couldn’t leave it because I believed if

In my loneliness

Look, I know the risk

Of the self worth crumbling in hopelessness

The evil had me addicted till my high was over with

I couldn’t live and the reality is

I kicked the habit of it

False love that was action less

I had only learned a fraction of it

The heartbreak of being passionate

The toxic was as eye opening as it was hazardous

And when you realize just ask yourself this…

How much love really cost?