::STARS::

This is state of the art/

The state of my art/

From the state of my heart/

Patronage of the art/

Straight from the heart…

I’m not paid for my art/

Just a place for this pain to be discard/

So they can’t say…

I didn’t make it this far/

From the words that’ve been taken apart/

For the souls taken at large/

They say you get what you give….

And that is labeled as charged/

They wonder If it was the pain…

That made you this hard/

Not realizing it was this fate that’s involved/ 

Faith that’s evolved/

They want to replace what you made great with their scars/

With no end in sight and can’t explain this part/

But I shine bright and remain in the stars. 

::EYES ON THE PRIZE::

They tried to defeat me and write me off/

But learning lessons aren’t like a loss/

For every reaction there’s a cause/

For every action no doubt there’s a cost…

I survived through the dark and the noise/

My heart even when broken kept me poised/

Taking chances… 

Falling down and getting up only takes advances/

Me and the hard times are like those hate&love romances/

I don’t live for the questions… 

I only find the answers/

Knowing difficulties are around the corner and won’t vanish/

I’ve done taken damage/

Been taken advantage/

But my roar is savage/

My will is isn’t average/

Still some wonder how I manage/

My character describes what this man is/

Those open hands is… Bad biz/

I can’t part for those not in my faction/

Not even a fraction/

Steady eyes on the prize with no distractions/

Can’t give up till I make it happen/

Haters laughing and doubt with an evil passion/

Reason I keep a smile on my face and keep passing/

On my way to the top of that mountain of my revival/

It’s been a key to my survival/

To push through and fight their denial. 

::CONFUSION::

Oh and if you smiled Would you stay awhile

Pick up all my broken pieces 

Where all my dreams could be us

If only you stayed this honest 

Because tomorrow is today’s promise

(Chorus)

Oh and I don’t know

And I’ve never been told

If love is real 

or if it’s all an illusion

So tell me how you feel

To me it’s all confusion

All confusion… All confusion
Ask me all about my day

Dig deep and find things to say

Open up my heart my soul to take

And don’t be gone before I wake 

Life is nothing but bitter mistakes 

But today’s promise can lead the way
(chorus)

Oh and I don’t know

And I’ve never been told

If love is real 

or if it’s all an illusion

So tell me how you feel

To me it’s all confusion

All confusion… All confusion 
Did you see my spot light 

Could you see me shine 

Was everything all right 

Tell me I don’t really mind

Cause I’m lost and I’m trying to find

The reason behind these broken promises of mine
To me it’s all confusion…

All confusion… 

To me it’s all confusion

All confusion 

::CHANGE::

I can still hear your voice

Messages on my phone

Crowded subway cars but I’m alone

It always seems I’m far from home

Passing under street lights

Where we paused to see life

9th Street in a history we can’t rewrite

How does it feel

What if our could have

Could have been everything

Would you have changed it all

Would you have changed it all

Would you have changed it at all

Bus rides going crosstown

Never been here before I’m lost now

Between heartbreak avenue

And losing it all just to have you

And I never fell so hard

And i’ve never felt so odd

But I jumped on with nowhere to go

But I just want to know

How does it feel

What if our could have

Could have been everything

Would you have changed it all

Would you have changed it all

Would you have changed it at all

Seasons change

And people change

It all seems so strange

Just your reasons to blame

Can’t believe you’re the same

Can’t believe you’re the same

I though you were my change

::MEMORIES::

I guess it’s my downfall

Surrounded by pain again

Cries unheard and I say

Will I ever find my way

Closing doors and throwing keys away

Will this be our last day

Memories that won’t fade

Memories that won’t fade

Why do they always stay

Why do they always stay

When they leave and it’s too late

Climbing walls with no end

Desperately hoping to speak

The light dims and the room

Goes dark just as I assumed

Rushed in love and it ends soon

Trapped in these thoughts are cruel

Memories that won’t fade

Memories that won’t fade

Why do they always stay

Why do they always stay

When they leave and it’s too late

You got exactly all you needed

My hearts stories won’t exceed it

When they ask for all this pain

Just know the memories remain

The kisses that won’t ever return

Thinking of all these lessens learned

Memories that last forever

Can’t erase what we had together

When even illusions seem real

There just memories that we’ll always feel

::HOW MUCH DOES LOVE COST::

How much does love really cost

The goodness of me that’s continuously lost?

Between the lies and illusions of thoughts

Is it normal that this pain is my source

Or is it overthinking and non conclusive

Attracting partners that have been abusive

Trading in the selfless for the selfish

Believing it was heaven but it was hellish

Isolated from the world I could tell this

Wasn’t what I needed

Blinded from the truth I couldn’t see it

Yearning for that love I could feel it

Given to me in increments before once again being defeated

I couldn’t leave it because I believed if

In my loneliness

Look, I know the risk

Of the self worth crumbling in hopelessness

The evil had me addicted till my high was over with

I couldn’t live and the reality is

I kicked the habit of it

False love that was action less

I had only learned a fraction of it

The heartbreak of being passionate

The toxic was as eye opening as it was hazardous

And when you realize just ask yourself this…

How much love really cost?

::ALARM::

These time tables

Of spinning clocks and hour glasses

Who was able

To see our memories go the fastest

Wondering if it’s right to ask this

Of how you consumed

This unknown of calm

I didn’t know your doom

Till you set off the alarm

Waking up

Turning and tossing in this bed

My life taken abrupt

These thoughts buried in my head

Thinking of all the painful things said

Of how you consumed

This unknown of calm

I didn’t know your doom

Till you set off the alarm

All I wanted

I can’t believe this can’t be simple

It’s become obvious

Couldn’t straighten out all the wrinkles

And it’s been too much to think through

Of how you consumed

This unknown of calm

I didn’t know your doom

Till you set off the alarm

And I’m awake…

And I’m awake…

No need to rock me back to sleep

I see it all now the dream was deep

The difference between reality and fantasy

::EVER::

If you didn’t love me

Couldn’t you just have pretended

All the smiles and laughs that were nothing

And now my soul can’t be mended

Thinking of this illusion every second

While my broken heart still has questions

And
I didn’t know any better

I wasn’t sure myself

So I wrote it in these letters

My pain trapped in this forever

And I can’t let it go… Ever.

I’m sitting here all alone

And the world passes by so slow

I thought you would always be home

And I felt pushed to just let it go

Destined to walk away and never know

Every hour passing with a no show

And
I didn’t know any better

I wasn’t sure myself

So I wrote it in these letters

My pain trapped in this forever

And I can’t let it go… Ever.

I’m not upset just really confused

See I gave it all with nothing to lose

Under the moon standing over you

Statues crying at our Grand Central

Pictures in my mind that last of you

If you could tell me I’d like to ask you

And
I didn’t know any better

Thought ours would be forever

Hourglasses that’ve severed

Pain trapped but you didn’t remember

And you let it go like whatever

::OUR SONG::

I wanted to know you

Beyond reasons I could go

To understand the causes

Of time and these love loses

And so I came across us tonight

In a song that would last for life

We made memories in a melody

Memories that still tempt me

And I know you’ve been long gone

But you’ll always live in our song

Woke up and replayed it

A thousand times and I’ll fake it

Not having you to dance with

And it’s hard cause I know your past it

But I rewind it right to our part

It was so beautiful at our very start

We made memories in that melody

Memories that still tempt me

And I know you’ve been long gone

But you’ll always live in our song

I wonder if I’ll always be yours

When time passes and it’s called

And the radio station takes my request

And it plays to the beat in my chest

When our memories are all that’s left

Just remember we made them still

And just like that they’ll always be real

And…we… made

Music for a lifetime

And… If… you

Stay in my lifeline

Know that it’s forever trapped

In our song that will forever last

::MISS MY BODY::

I know that love ain’t like this

Your body got me tainted

Your taste left me addicted

Passing time I guess I’m just waiting

And you know it won’t feel the same

Fucking others without any shame

You’ll miss my body in your body

Thinking thinking thinking of it

Has you going crazier probably

Because I know you love it love it love it

Our sex was as addictive as a drug is

Lemme get a hit… just a hit

Lemme grab you by the hips

Lemme argue and bite your lips

Lemme be the one you’ll always miss

I know when he touches you…

I’m the one who always fulfilled your wish

Lemme know if that thought makes you sick

You’ll miss my body in your body

Thinking thinking thinking of it

Has you going crazier probably

Because I know you love it love it love it

Our sex was as addictive as a drug is

I’m the sweetest drug

I had your mind twisted always

I have the deepest love

I had your body twisted in all ways

Talking dirty and following action

You’ll walk the earth searching for my passion

You’ll miss my body in your body

Thinking thinking thinking of it

Has you going crazier probably

Because I know you love it love it love it

Our sex was as addictive as a drug is

Are you over it

Are you over it

Over it

Come over quick

So I can make you cum all over this