::HURT ME::

Persecuted

From words diluted

Mind clouded 

Guess I’m just better suited

In a world far away from here

Where nobody is near

And nobody is near

And nobody can hear

The difference between 

You, my reality and our fears
I am no regrets I am no worries

Just give me a sec I’m in no hurry

And I didn’t ask if I was worthy 

All I asked was that you wouldn’t hurt me

But you hurt me… you hurt me 

Yea you hurt me… Oh you hurt me
Relegated 

Pushed aside and hesitated

Always debated and lied to 

You were so unmindful 

And you had my mind fooled

And now I wanna hide from you

Tears fall when I’m reminded of you

But I’ll be fine I’m cool 

I’m glad I won’t waste anymore time on you
I am no regrets I am no worries

Just give me a sec I’m in no hurry

And I didn’t ask if I was worthy 

All I asked was that you wouldn’t hurt me

But you hurt me… you hurt me 

Yea you hurt me… Oh you hurt me
Addicted

Tears and pain conflicted

No pity drawn in my image

Walking away a casualty of your sickness

Love torn battled this only witness

Blood scars and memories in vision

Barely alive… But I’m alive and kicking

Knowing there is nothing worth missing

For those pleas are no longer worth listening

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::I AM::

This pain is not my derivative

Explained only as my spirit is 

That darkness that was visited 

Do you believe that miracles live?

I am…

A walking ghost of my past

And through tears I laughed

My soul is a comedy at that 

And my stage presence requires

More than just this inner burning fire

Seeking a learning of much higher

Spiritual desires to visualize the liars

Do you believe that miracles conspire?

I am…

The silent question mark of the unanswered

The voice of reason for this anger

The heart beat that doesn’t quite pitter patter 

The one who didn’t matter till morning 

Woke up and wiped away all this mourning

Woke up writing away with this brain storming

Do you believe in miracles forming?

I am…

The cries that fall upon deaf ears

Following the shadow of death for years

Looking back on all the good that disappears

Now I dare ask again if you didn’t hear

As I stand here masked in your fears

Do you believe that miracles are near?

I am…

The beautiful pain

I am…

The unexplained 

I am…

All that remains

I am…

Me. 

::MISSING LINK::

I think I am the new Tupac

With views from the through block 

From where the news flocks

And neighbors get new locks

Where they tarnished our image

And Pardoned our limits

Garnish our checks with gimmicks

And our gardens are built with 

Refined sugars and malt liquids 

Where out of state family won’t visit

Counting those minutes away 

Even cloudy on sunny days 

Feeling like we’re forced to stay

We say tomorrow will be different

Alarms don’t go off and we miss the rent

Corners are alive and always listening

To visualize the death of the innocent

Bullets are blind and non discriminative

Broken families over the bitterness

Yet were always talking about building shit

But leave our love out in the wilderness 

And attack our communities while were filming this

Morals instilled in us or are we just missing this

Or are we just the missing links 

Missing the objective to think. 

::SHOULDER TATTOOS::

I knew I couldn’t save the world/
I just knew I couldn’t save this girl/
And you were a pearl somewhere in a shell trapped/
A life of pain…
I guess that’s all we could attract/
And that’s a fact and I guess were so much alike/
But different in many ways I guess I just saw the light/
I couldn’t write about it cause I’ll never understand it/
Apologize for what he did that led to that bad habit/
You came 15 years too late for me to grasp it/
And my empathy and understanding were no source of magic/
In fact it… Left me with much of your damage/
No panic… I been here before and reached up to be alive/
To be in life with your condition…
A damaged vision/
But you can’t self medicate a traumatic living/
I hate them all for putting you in this position/
I can’t imagine your inner demons telling you to listen/
And I know now it really wasn’t truly your decision/
I’m thinking you think I was always ready to fold/
But you should know your mistakes will rest in my soul/
Life takes a toll on each of us so we must forgive/
For most of us life was stole before we could really live/
Delirium and psychosis/
Depression and losing all your focus/
No hope for loving the hopeless/
Lost souls seeking revenge from the soulless/
Trying to find redemption in the high of the dope biz/
Maybe your reincarnation will leave you so bliss/
And I know in that next lifetime we can be just know this/
May the Angels of The Lord protect us and show this/
I was wrong but I know I couldn’t belong and that’s why I wrote this/
Just another tattoo on shoulders.

::MY LIFE::

When people assume it’s only because they fear the truth/
I guess my words are my actions…
See all that it’s lead me to/
Clawing tooth and nail in a world where I’m destined to fail/
Dreaming every night on when these dreams a set sail/
We all have our tales I’m just best to describe mine/
I’m sure we all have pain in our lives… Just look at my lines/
Tough times in rough rhymes patterned behind emotional crimes/
I was designed a little different/
I’ve come a long way from being a misfit/
But it’s that childhood I think back to and I miss it/
The innocence is long place away and too far to visit/
Listen… My imperfections make me perfect for me/
But again nothing is perfect no matter how hard you believe/
We… Can be betrayed and deceived by the ones we need/
Truth indeed… Life longs can become for life gone/
I guess we can let bygones be bygones/
But really who is the judge of our right and wrongs/
I’m not trying to write a song but a symphony of life/
And I’m not looking for pity or validation in anyone’s eyes/
Because they wish for your pain through their sympathy of lies/
And I’ve cried a million rain storms sitting alone/
And I’ve been a shoulder for tears to rain on/
I’ve been the consoled and consoler/
I guess if you understand their pain it makes you tougher/
More so to a stranger than a sister or brother/
I take cover in solitude at times to hide from reality/
Because I could never imagine all this sadness and tragedy/
But I learned in hugs they were backstabbing me/
And I held on tighter to them…Don’t be mad at me/
Don’t be sad for me… Be happy for me actually/
Because nobody fake could ever pass for me/
And my past is my past so don’t ask if this love will last in me/
Cause I’m standing tall in the face of blasphemy/
With no hate in my heart so I know I’m living passionately.

::HERE::

35 years and I’m right here
Through the wrongs and the rights here
Through every single word that I write here
Through the darkness and what I might fear
Through the shine of my soul and the light here
Feelings expressed and though they might hear
Had a few backs turned thought they might care
Still believing in my dreams after a few nightmares
So I still put all my hope in my days and my nights there
Still talking to The Lord and I know that Christ’s here
Keeping me strong through the cries here
Keeping me where I belong away from the lies here
Circle getting smaller with people falling out of my sphere
But it’s 35 years and I’m right here and I’ll make it quite clear
No matter what happens good or bad I’m truly alive here.

::LOVE IS ALL::

Do I know what love is
The high of what that drug is
Hurt more than once before this
but I dug deep
Yes I know what it all means
To start over and overcome faults
To reveal deep concerns from a vault
Can’t conceal dreams of any sort
How long can this great applaud last
How can you balance the true task
Of giving up yourself for what they ask
How to put the past to rest and forget
For even a true love broken can’t be a regret
A lesson learnt and a must to accept
Understanding it’s impossible to protect
The open threat of falling for a damaged soul
Getting destroyed deep down by the viciously cold
And rising again…
Because love is all you want to know.