::FIND WHATS RIGHT::

If you find yourself in these pages
Words matching up to these sayings
If you still find your heart beating
Those are the words and your soul meeting

But…

You’re so distracted from the good in life… The good in life
Why can’t you step back and look at life… Just look at life
To busy trying to find what’s wrong to find what’s right… Just find what’s right

Some day you’ll wake up from your dreams
And it won’t be what you always conceived it would be
You shouldn’t stand there questioning motives
In clouded thoughts making it hard to notice

But…

You’re so distracted from the good in life… The good in life
Why can’t you step back and look at life… Just look at life
To busy trying to find what’s wrong to find what’s right… Just find what’s right

One man’s trash is another man’s treasure
One women’s loss is another women pleasure
It’s one life why should all our mistakes measure
And it’s no wonder they say never say never

::HARD TO ERASE::

There has to be a better way/Looking around corners for better days/

The stars don’t shine like they used to/

Constant thinking has my mind confused to/

Look… I’m just sitting here trying to put it all together/

Maybe my math is wrong when it comes to forever/

Infinity signs/

They live in my mind/

I see designs of hearts and world structures/

What’s love what’s life…

what the fuck bruh/

I can’t even take criticism well lately/

Wanna be alone even though these women wanna date me/

Soon they’ll hate me judging off my present/

But my past fucked up… It’s like a death sentence/

And if I keep writing then you might get mentioned/

I don’t need this tension and drinking ain’t the answer/

I use to be happy go lucky but this heartbreak is a cancer/

I’m a disaster and I can’t help it/

Trying to love myself again and I feel selfish/

And the world don’t help this/

And I ain’t trying to see no therapist/

I keep thinking there gotta be some better shit/

Got a gym membership and tried to work out my pain/

Running miles thinking about fame/

Since you said my name wasn’t worth shit/

Maybe I’ll get a gig and get my words spit/

My nerves get the best of me/

Fuck it… I gave you what was left in me/

Fuck it… I thought me and you was destiny… But we would never be/

I’m empty… I don’t trust like I use to/

My friends say she just used you/

Death around the corner… 

So where’s the news crew?/

It’s all about the who’s who/

I swore I knew but I was confused too/

This is that true blue under the weather poetry/

I’ll be better off tomorrow for you just knowing me/

And showing me/

There’s nothing wrong with being a lonely me/

And I know the sky will clear up/

And maybe I’ll cheer up/

Maybe I’ll forget all this nonsense/

In fact I’ve been really calm since/

And settled into my own place/

Found myself again got my own place/

But memories still live in my thoughts…

It’s a part of the heart that’s hard to erase. 

::THE HEARTBREAK LAW::

Here’s the story…Here’s the story…

Here’s the story…
Ladies and gentlemen…

Grab a seat and sit back to this/

Maybe some of it will comes off as irrelevant/

A story about man and women…

And it was supposed to be so heaven sent/

But somewhere along the line… 

It got jumbled like how the letters get/

Pay attention to sentences and don’t lose your place/

Please allow me to trace the timetable like stars that grace our Space/

Indent and space paragraphs that won’t soon be replaced/

See this young man fell in love with a sweet face/

But he ain’t/

Or wasn’t…as I should say/

Prepared for the about face and all the craze/

But there he stood trying to chase…

Waterfalls/

And that’s when disorder calls/

It’s more like the laws of physics/

See he was physically and spiritually attracted to this misses/

Put big diamonds on her ring finger/

No doubt in his mind lingered/

Skin tone ginger/

Eyes that could tranquilize your inners/

Not for the faint of heart or beginners/

She went from hold to as cold as a New York winter/

Fastest than a New York minute and his ego was injured/

See the man had to remove all the splinters from his heart/

Vowed it would never again happen… His soul turned hard/

It wasn’t hard to see he was easily scar’d/

But he was a man no less so he was in charge/

Of his emotional and mental state that were held at large/

Looking into the sky he would tell the stars/

If I prayed for one day to have a love so endless/

How could you send this/

The stars replied…

Cause to understand love you must endure a pain so senseless/

Wait… Excuse me… Let’s just pretend this/

Never happened… But the star was relentless/

Cause the man had to learn from this lesson/

And it was…
Love never hurts and when it does it was real….

But it takes two to make it feel and give it that real appeal…

So some come and go and they might steal…

A piece of your heart and it will reveal…

A part of yourself you never saw…

And that’s called the heartbreak law.

::FAR TO GO::

I’ve been thinking lately…Maybe too much/

The truth is lady…

I can feel the love through us/

I’ll be right back baby…

But please don’t excuse us/

Where did I leave off maybe…

With words that would suit us/

I know you just…

Don’t understand where I’m coming from/

If your past is what your running from/

I got that slow down for you it ain’t nothing hun/

I been numerous things too except a number 1/

Yea I hear you…

That’s another one/

But you see the sun…

It’ll rise again/

We’ll feel alive inside again/

And in time again/

Your heart will feel the vibe again/

So let me nurture you like a vitamin/

Show you a side of the brighter men/

I know some ego’s derive from sin/

And you seen the worst of minds from men/

But I’m far more deep and you comprehend/

On end… It’s a new beginning/

Like news that’s so uplifting/

Like that new song i’m singing/

It’s a fine tune… We’re fine tuned/

And I’m loving it so much… 

I’m about to hit that rewind soon/

Be mine soon/

Flood my mind like a monsoon/

And erase all that I’ve gone through/

Yea I know this world is hostile/

But if you got me… I got you/

And that’s love plus props due/

I’m trying to meet mom and pops dukes/

Take time and see if you wanna rock too/

I got a lot to prove… Just so you know/

We here now… But still got so far to go. 

::RELATIONSHIPS PENDING::

You’re so pretentious/

So damn aggressive/

You need some therapy…

Find out where your head is/

But damn that head is/

Yo… Let’s play a game of confession/

Broken hearts are part of the lesson/

But let it be the last time you question/

Don’t lie like I wasn’t the best shit/

That happened in your life…

Don’t try to kill off my ego’s progression/

Like not answering my text message/

Chick I know you got the message/

Why you all about the drama and tension/

Why can’t it all be simple…

Cause we can end this and end up on some friendship/

But you and I know there ain’t no friend shit/

Cause men lie women lie this pettiness is endless/

But we can pretend this/

Make amends if/

I was checking my social media and I wasn’t on your friends list/

You just wanna see me with clenched fist/

How did your appointment go at the dentist?/

See I cared enough to ask but your ass relentless/

Can’t finish my sentence/

Phone numbers changing man its senseless/

How many apologies do I have to mention?/

This is all a game to you…

Yea I get this/

Fuck it… Let’s just dead this/

Tired of these rejections/

Crushed dreams of weddings/

We let our fears create these very endings/

It’s just a relationship pending. 

::DATED LOVE:

I used to date this chick called LOVE/But I haven’t seen LOVE in awhile/

See while I was away far in miles/

I heard things getting back to me from DENIAL/

Now DENIAL isn’t one to speak with TRUTH/

But TRUTH said DENIAL was chilling with TRUCE/

And TRUCE ain’t one to hold a GRUDGE/

But GRUDGE is as toxic when it came to LOVE/

Now it all gets back… the story of us/

And LOVE is talking about REVENGE/

Now REVENGE has been in and out of the PEN/

Because words kill and that’s known by SIN/

And SIN doesn’t speak much cause he hangs out with SECRETS/

And because of that he thought LOVE wouldn’t believe shit/

And beneath it all LOVE saw FORGIVENESS on the sneak tip/

And told LOVE a yo you gotta peep this/

See LOVE was on some deep shit so she had a sit down with EMOTIONS/

And EMOTIONS told her never to lose her focus/

Cause LIES and ANGER will always be two of the same and hopeless/

So then LOVE was introduced momentarily to HOPE and BLISS/

And they gave her the signs that shouldn’t have been dismissed/

You see LOVE missed me but she didn’t know who to believe/

She was caught up listening to HATE and all of his peeps/

RUMORS consumed her just like HATE had planned/

But that’s where LOVE fucked up because I’m a different kind of MAN/

And because I am I introduced her back to LOVE/

Because if she can’t LOVE herself enough there can’t be an us/

But BREAK UP and CHEAT didn’t understand all the fuss/

Cause they were trying to get in LOVEs ear on the bus/

You see they think you had to be stupid to roll with TRUST/

And TRUST overheard all this and had enough/

So I confiding in TRUST who knew all about LOVE and made me understand/

That I didn’t need all those other EMOTIONS to prove to LOVE that I was her MAN. 

::CONFUSION::

Oh and if you smiled Would you stay awhile

Pick up all my broken pieces 

Where all my dreams could be us

If only you stayed this honest 

Because tomorrow is today’s promise

(Chorus)

Oh and I don’t know

And I’ve never been told

If love is real 

or if it’s all an illusion

So tell me how you feel

To me it’s all confusion

All confusion… All confusion
Ask me all about my day

Dig deep and find things to say

Open up my heart my soul to take

And don’t be gone before I wake 

Life is nothing but bitter mistakes 

But today’s promise can lead the way
(chorus)

Oh and I don’t know

And I’ve never been told

If love is real 

or if it’s all an illusion

So tell me how you feel

To me it’s all confusion

All confusion… All confusion 
Did you see my spot light 

Could you see me shine 

Was everything all right 

Tell me I don’t really mind

Cause I’m lost and I’m trying to find

The reason behind these broken promises of mine
To me it’s all confusion…

All confusion… 

To me it’s all confusion

All confusion 

::CHANGE::

I can still hear your voice

Messages on my phone

Crowded subway cars but I’m alone

It always seems I’m far from home

Passing under street lights

Where we paused to see life

9th Street in a history we can’t rewrite

How does it feel

What if our could have

Could have been everything

Would you have changed it all

Would you have changed it all

Would you have changed it at all

Bus rides going crosstown

Never been here before I’m lost now

Between heartbreak avenue

And losing it all just to have you

And I never fell so hard

And i’ve never felt so odd

But I jumped on with nowhere to go

But I just want to know

How does it feel

What if our could have

Could have been everything

Would you have changed it all

Would you have changed it all

Would you have changed it at all

Seasons change

And people change

It all seems so strange

Just your reasons to blame

Can’t believe you’re the same

Can’t believe you’re the same

I though you were my change

::MEMORIES::

I guess it’s my downfall

Surrounded by pain again

Cries unheard and I say

Will I ever find my way

Closing doors and throwing keys away

Will this be our last day

Memories that won’t fade

Memories that won’t fade

Why do they always stay

Why do they always stay

When they leave and it’s too late

Climbing walls with no end

Desperately hoping to speak

The light dims and the room

Goes dark just as I assumed

Rushed in love and it ends soon

Trapped in these thoughts are cruel

Memories that won’t fade

Memories that won’t fade

Why do they always stay

Why do they always stay

When they leave and it’s too late

You got exactly all you needed

My hearts stories won’t exceed it

When they ask for all this pain

Just know the memories remain

The kisses that won’t ever return

Thinking of all these lessens learned

Memories that last forever

Can’t erase what we had together

When even illusions seem real

There just memories that we’ll always feel

::HOW MUCH DOES LOVE COST::

How much does love really cost

The goodness of me that’s continuously lost?

Between the lies and illusions of thoughts

Is it normal that this pain is my source

Or is it overthinking and non conclusive

Attracting partners that have been abusive

Trading in the selfless for the selfish

Believing it was heaven but it was hellish

Isolated from the world I could tell this

Wasn’t what I needed

Blinded from the truth I couldn’t see it

Yearning for that love I could feel it

Given to me in increments before once again being defeated

I couldn’t leave it because I believed if

In my loneliness

Look, I know the risk

Of the self worth crumbling in hopelessness

The evil had me addicted till my high was over with

I couldn’t live and the reality is

I kicked the habit of it

False love that was action less

I had only learned a fraction of it

The heartbreak of being passionate

The toxic was as eye opening as it was hazardous

And when you realize just ask yourself this…

How much love really cost?