::GIVE ME::

When the body it yearns

And the mind doesn’t learn

And were all just taking turns

What is it that you actually earned


So do you miss me 

When it’s all too risky

What do you wish me

More of the pain that you give me

Give me give me give me 


Painfully looking at our pictures

Were either victims or victors

They asked if I missed her

They ask if my hearts been injured


So do you miss me 

When it’s all too risky

What do you wish me

More of the pain that you give me

Give me give me give me


When sunshines don’t reach 

Blowing winds on an empty beach

What do broken hearts teach

More than the words of love can speak 


So do you miss me 

When it’s all too risky

What do you wish me

More of the pain that you give me

Give me give me give me


How could it all end shattered

Betrayed and souls battered 

I wish I could just ask her 

Was it us or did you only matter 


So do you miss me 

When it’s all too risky

What do you wish me

More of the pain that you give me

Give me give me give me

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::RUSH::

I will never remove this

It’s cemented in script 

Our forever was a sign

I’m reminded every time

Guess I’m the lucky one

Because it changed my life

And if they ask what happens

Tell them to read between the lines 


(Chorus)

Tears aren’t deep enough

These words will leave it up

To us…

To us and I believe your love

Was sent from above

But we got caught in the rush


Infinity couldn’t reach us here

So somehow the end is near

You saw the pain in my eyes

When ours was left behind

And the hours pass uncounted

And the days just mounted 

Where do we go for our tomorrow

Was your love mine or just borrowed 


(Chorus)

Tears aren’t deep enough

These words will leave it up

To us…

To us and I believe your love

Was sent from above

But we got caught in the rush


Tattooed in my mind

Just trying to find 

The escape to this ink

When all I do is think

Who’s left to trust

Caught up in the rush

::GOING PLACES::

Everywhere I look

It’s a hard reminder 

Gave all I could 

But I couldn’t find her 

And the time stops 

It starts up when I think

Till the bottom drops

The end of where we begin


(chorus)

Going places 

With no direction 

Knowing faces

With no intentions

My memory chases

The slowly fading and resting


Unanswered questions

Worlds spinning in our view

My minds clouded and jaded 

Just knowing you hate it

I saw it all before it happened 

Words not matching their actions

We fabricate and elaborate

But efforts go like a past date 


(chorus)

Going places 

With no direction 

Knowing faces

With no intentions

My memory chases

The slowly fading and resting



Our time is winding

No perfect timing 

The clocks hands are blinding

Inching up and climbing

Losing thoughts and crying

Lost in our silver linings 

::WORSE CONCERNS::

I knew I couldn’t stay

It was coming to an end

Wasn’t much for us to say

Now I’m losing my only friend


Windows blurred discreetly

Tears running down freely

Stuck even with my feet beneath me 

Wishing you could believe me


(Chorus)

And we all need to be needed 

And we all just seem defeated 

Blinded even if we could see it

Sad love songs being repeated


Are you lost now

With nowhere to go

Wondering how

Standing with no hand to hold


Windows blurred discreetly

Tears running down freely

Stuck even with my feet beneath me 

Wishing you could believe me


(Chorus)

And we all need to be needed 

And we all just seem defeated 

Blinded even if we could see it

Sad love songs being repeated


The tables turnt

The lessons learnt 

The heart it burns

For just our worse concerns

::PONDERED::

Seeking out the positives 

Though the object is 

Objective to the obvious 

Not knowing what the problem is

Probably because I’m part of this

Ostracized and turned on the switch

Convoluted contradictions and conned to think

There is no wrong yet I pondered to risk. 

::YOU::


You know you are so into you

And this world doesn’t exist

You are so selfish it’s true

I don’t even know why I persist

You don’t even need my fuel 

Yet you drain me of all this 

You swear you’re so cool

Compliments only when you insist

You know how to play the fool

But have a problem with my innocence

You can never ever be so cruel

Yet you leave me with this emptiness 

Its like your always in a constant duel

Till you find I’m at the end of this…

The you you it’s always gotta be you

What about the world I’m so confused

So mentally and physically abused

So ready to walk and unamused

Thinking you won I’m ready to lose

But you… Are you… Pardon the truth

But you don’t make it hard to choose

You make it obvious without the clue 

That it’s you you and always been you

I’m tired of giving and being left in recluse

This wasn’t the you…

That made the we I was hoping to choose

Now I see this is the you…

No way I can get back the time we lose…

Thank…. You. 

::I AM::

This pain is not my derivative

Explained only as my spirit is 

That darkness that was visited 

Do you believe that miracles live?

I am…

A walking ghost of my past

And through tears I laughed

My soul is a comedy at that 

And my stage presence requires

More than just this inner burning fire

Seeking a learning of much higher

Spiritual desires to visualize the liars

Do you believe that miracles conspire?

I am…

The silent question mark of the unanswered

The voice of reason for this anger

The heart beat that doesn’t quite pitter patter 

The one who didn’t matter till morning 

Woke up and wiped away all this mourning

Woke up writing away with this brain storming

Do you believe in miracles forming?

I am…

The cries that fall upon deaf ears

Following the shadow of death for years

Looking back on all the good that disappears

Now I dare ask again if you didn’t hear

As I stand here masked in your fears

Do you believe that miracles are near?

I am…

The beautiful pain

I am…

The unexplained 

I am…

All that remains

I am…

Me. 

::DEEPER::

Where do we take

Love after it breaks

Trust and we’ve been lost

In the cusp of thinking of us 

The rush slows down

The heart beats were so loud 

As drums could beat 

Lost awake in a sleep 

And reality did seem 

As if you could rewrite a dream

Unraveled at the seams 

Redeemed a coupon for a new

Life in seek of the truth 

Beneath the lies assumed 

Consumed by the universe

Maybe it could be us

in another world

Where I saw diamonds and pearls

Designed on the perfect girl 

Whirlwinds and I take off 

No direction and I stay lost 

Finding my way when fate calls

No days off I took years already

Heart heavy and…

You’re..

All..

Hiding.. 

Never.. 

Zealously.. 

Yielding anything of a deeper meaning. 

::LOSING IS MY MISTRESS::

Am I more than just an afterthought 

Or could I be the biggest fan of loss

Lost in a trap that I’m so after the cost

That I have truly abandoned the course

Of a mental mind state that I had divorced 

Remorse of course my conscious is forced

To do better in trying to gain this source

Now a days my heart beats like a chore

I need to be more… Ambitious

The world is so brutally vicious

My pain and struggle is delicious

As they feed off my horrid decisions

I visit deep thoughts and inquisitions

No wonder I have no pot to piss in 

No wonder I have nobody who wants to listen

A free man doing a life of hard time in this prison 

We call it freedom behind this blurred vision

It’s amazing some of us haven’t turned up missing

In this magnificent system

I close my eyes to these rhythms 

Drift away and think of a day we could live in 

Where we could take away pain and fit in

Deeper than the words written 

Because any day could be your last given 

But listen…

But listen…

But listen…

To your inner

Was it all that you could give her

Was it all that you could give to a quitter

Some people will always be bitter

Drinking away anger and all that delivers

Us from evil we put in our livers

Cold world enough to make us shiver

Down the road leading to the river

Wash it all away for a bigger picture

Victory to all the victors

Far after they lift us

And after we dismiss the distrust 

Knowing losing was just a mistress. 

::MISSING LINK::

I think I am the new Tupac

With views from the through block 

From where the news flocks

And neighbors get new locks

Where they tarnished our image

And Pardoned our limits

Garnish our checks with gimmicks

And our gardens are built with 

Refined sugars and malt liquids 

Where out of state family won’t visit

Counting those minutes away 

Even cloudy on sunny days 

Feeling like we’re forced to stay

We say tomorrow will be different

Alarms don’t go off and we miss the rent

Corners are alive and always listening

To visualize the death of the innocent

Bullets are blind and non discriminative

Broken families over the bitterness

Yet were always talking about building shit

But leave our love out in the wilderness 

And attack our communities while were filming this

Morals instilled in us or are we just missing this

Or are we just the missing links 

Missing the objective to think.