::DEATH OF A SOUL::

Passing time of rewinded memories

Fast forwarding pain sent to me

Sun shaded by this dark past

Escaping clouds in a dark path 

Remind me again of a child’s smile

The world has been gone for awhile 
Rain drops kiss window panes 

Death of a soul

Like tears from a widows pain

Thoughts from far ago

That’s just as far as this pain will go

Death of a soul
Broken mirror images of past regret

Touching my arm as you ask again 

That forgiveness lost it’s meaning

Painful words that left scars bleeding

And your smile reminds me of your evil ways

The reality of my world that you pushed away
Rain drops kiss window panes 

Death of a soul

Like tears from a widows pain

Thoughts from far ago

That’s just as far as this pain will go

Death of a soul
Screams outside and crying inside

Can’t understand these dying tries

Looking around and nobody sees 

And everyone believes what they believe

If only your smile could set you free

The world was waiting for something you didn’t need 
Rain drops kiss window panes 

Death of a soul

Like tears from a widows pain

Thoughts from far ago

That’s just as far as this pain will go

Death of a soul

::EMPTY GLARES::

All the time and the hours gone by

Window staring stars shine and fly

Thinking clocks they tick and tock 

Just when will these memories stop

And I knew your stay wouldn’t last

But I couldn’t help through the laughs

And those jeers quickly turned to tears

And those days turned into empty years 
Empty glares 

As everyone stares

Why couldn’t we keep it together 

Now these scars will live in our forever 
Walking past our favorite places

Your love is on my tongue and I can still taste it

Emotions just wasted and they won’t return 

The pain and the hurt are just lessons learned

Stripes earned in a battle with our hearts

All the betrayal and lies that tore us apart 

Maybe you won’t understand 

Maybe soon after it won’t matter

The tragedy of loving your disaster
Empty glares 

As everyone stares

Why couldn’t we keep it together 

Now these scars will live in our forever 
I left my dreams far from it all

Staring at the phone and unanswered calls

Train hoping missing stops that were once ours

Had me thinking lost for some hours

It wasn’t love and I’m sure you knew this 

Your fears overwhelmed my music 

And so I lowered the volume to hear the truth

And ended up with lyrics of an evil muse 
Empty glares 

As everyone stares

Why couldn’t we keep it together 

Now these scars will live in our forever 

::SAD SYMPHONIES::

Waking up while the sun is still rising

People with masks and lies disguising 

Talking chatter and sickening laughter 

People with tasks of happily ever after 

And I’m sitting in bed looking at fan blades spinning 

This world is losing and it’s filled with the ones sinning 
Sad symphonies 

Are we taking notes

Expecting the worse

Is that all we know

Is that all we know
Walking through these rain drops 

Wondering when the hate will stop

I saw someone from the past 

And I saw it was hard for them to laugh

I didn’t have to ask I just knew 

The pain of the past still lives in a few 
Sad symphonies 

Are we taking notes

Expecting the worse

Is that all we know

Is that all we know
And now I’m here all alone in this place

And it’s for the best and I feel so safe

Can’t understand why people are this way

Can’t trust anyone and I’m always looking away

My dreams are crumbling at the hands of the fake 

And now I’m here all alone… And all I can say
Sad symphonies 

Are we taking notes

Expecting the worse

Is that all we know

Is that all we know
Sad symphonies 

::LOST::


We can never escape our memories

Climb out of these painful entities 

Far lost and gone deep long away 

Understand that this is the only way

If I could explain who would hear me

Anyway if so the couldn’t see clearly

You may have gotten out unscathed 

I’m still finding directions misplaced 


Lost…

Gone and alone…

What’s the cost of finding a home…

Because I’m lost in the unknown


It was too easy getting comfortable

Blinded and vulnerable and out of view

Right or wrong, I have the right to the truth

When lonely roads are all behind you 

And some questions are better unanswered

With no need to know the cause of disasters

Whirlwinds of deceit and heavy rain 

Seems to be the pattern for everyones pain 


Lost…

Gone and alone…

What’s the cost of finding a home…

Because I’m lost in the unknown


Giving false directions

Taking a few wrong turns

Just one of the few lessons

This is what I’ve learned 

Broken maps for the hopeless

You lead me wrong and you know this

Loving the lost and soulless

Left my heart cold and homeless 

::GIVE ME::

When the body it yearns

And the mind doesn’t learn

And were all just taking turns

What is it that you actually earned


So do you miss me 

When it’s all too risky

What do you wish me

More of the pain that you give me

Give me give me give me 


Painfully looking at our pictures

Were either victims or victors

They asked if I missed her

They ask if my hearts been injured


So do you miss me 

When it’s all too risky

What do you wish me

More of the pain that you give me

Give me give me give me


When sunshines don’t reach 

Blowing winds on an empty beach

What do broken hearts teach

More than the words of love can speak 


So do you miss me 

When it’s all too risky

What do you wish me

More of the pain that you give me

Give me give me give me


How could it all end shattered

Betrayed and souls battered 

I wish I could just ask her 

Was it us or did you only matter 


So do you miss me 

When it’s all too risky

What do you wish me

More of the pain that you give me

Give me give me give me

::JUST A DREAM::

Love lived here once before

Broken now and once my only cure

Though I saw the threat of a broken heart

I blindly accepted and played the part

Revisited knowingly within my innocence

I gave freely and frequently visited

I showered it with hopes of growth 

But lost the words when it spoke

I was turned away, betrayed and strayed 

I was burned in the blaze and stayed

My tears would douse my severe burns

Empty dreams in puddles yearned 

I woke up once and fell back to sleep indeed 

With the belief that love was just a dream. 

::YOU::


You know you are so into you

And this world doesn’t exist

You are so selfish it’s true

I don’t even know why I persist

You don’t even need my fuel 

Yet you drain me of all this 

You swear you’re so cool

Compliments only when you insist

You know how to play the fool

But have a problem with my innocence

You can never ever be so cruel

Yet you leave me with this emptiness 

Its like your always in a constant duel

Till you find I’m at the end of this…

The you you it’s always gotta be you

What about the world I’m so confused

So mentally and physically abused

So ready to walk and unamused

Thinking you won I’m ready to lose

But you… Are you… Pardon the truth

But you don’t make it hard to choose

You make it obvious without the clue 

That it’s you you and always been you

I’m tired of giving and being left in recluse

This wasn’t the you…

That made the we I was hoping to choose

Now I see this is the you…

No way I can get back the time we lose…

Thank…. You. 

::WINTER WIND::

I see an endless 

Mirage of images 

My heart has been

Open for business

365 for that instance

We want it all in an instant 

When happiness calls 

We hang up on persistence

Blind to all within our vision

Hearing but hard to listen

Lost in our own mission

The map was all in our thinking

Assumptions that always visited

Accusations filled with bitterness

Deep in our minds we depict a mist

Looking for truth when it’s missed 

Souls lost in a fractured kiss

Hearts froze in that winter wind. 

::SWEETEST ILLUSION::

I loved your lies

Although I knew the truth

Saw the look in your eyes

And a deeper part of you

I was waiting

While your escape plan was created

With your demons 

The pictures painted on your canvas

Explained it all

Till the last bit of you vanished.


(Chorus)

It’s always the sweetest illusion 

The greatest ones do this

Becoming our muses

Disappearing in the beat of the music.


I was trapped in a mend

Confused even with the answers

Because again and again 

You had me mastered

You played the instrument well

That symphony you sell

But you dragged me into your darkness

And showed me where your heart is

And it’s somewhere love does not live. 


(Chorus)

It’s always the sweetest illusion 

The greatest ones do this

Becoming our muses

Disappearing in the beat of the music.


If I could forget I’d forget

But your forever sketched 

In the back of my mind 

With each memory worse than the next. 

::MY LIFE::

When people assume it’s only because they fear the truth/
I guess my words are my actions…
See all that it’s lead me to/
Clawing tooth and nail in a world where I’m destined to fail/
Dreaming every night on when these dreams a set sail/
We all have our tales I’m just best to describe mine/
I’m sure we all have pain in our lives… Just look at my lines/
Tough times in rough rhymes patterned behind emotional crimes/
I was designed a little different/
I’ve come a long way from being a misfit/
But it’s that childhood I think back to and I miss it/
The innocence is long place away and too far to visit/
Listen… My imperfections make me perfect for me/
But again nothing is perfect no matter how hard you believe/
We… Can be betrayed and deceived by the ones we need/
Truth indeed… Life longs can become for life gone/
I guess we can let bygones be bygones/
But really who is the judge of our right and wrongs/
I’m not trying to write a song but a symphony of life/
And I’m not looking for pity or validation in anyone’s eyes/
Because they wish for your pain through their sympathy of lies/
And I’ve cried a million rain storms sitting alone/
And I’ve been a shoulder for tears to rain on/
I’ve been the consoled and consoler/
I guess if you understand their pain it makes you tougher/
More so to a stranger than a sister or brother/
I take cover in solitude at times to hide from reality/
Because I could never imagine all this sadness and tragedy/
But I learned in hugs they were backstabbing me/
And I held on tighter to them…Don’t be mad at me/
Don’t be sad for me… Be happy for me actually/
Because nobody fake could ever pass for me/
And my past is my past so don’t ask if this love will last in me/
Cause I’m standing tall in the face of blasphemy/
With no hate in my heart so I know I’m living passionately.